gosh i'm sorry that i haven't written in a while but, i've been so busy... dad has been in and out of the hospitial and I have been busy taking care of everything while he was gone, jeremy and i have been dating for 10 months and going strong. i'm giving in and going to the doctor for my back, i got 2 baby goats, patches and bubbas. don't ask about bubbas name, he's not mine so i didn't want to get to attached to him, we bought her (patches) but not him b/c they're brother and sister, the guy just didn't want to seperate them, he's picking them both up in june or july and taking them to a petting zoo and he will try to sell him there and bring her back, i didn't name him i just call him bubbas so that i don't get upset when he doesn't come back w/ patches, it will be hard on them though b/c they are inceperable right now.

well i g2g i just that i would catch up while i had a few spare mins.

bye

Alinca

ok, here's what i did.... i have a deep bruise on my muscle, they put me on muscle relaxers!

dad got his stiches out and we can't keep him in the house, but i guess if he gets hurt then he will slow it down. yeah right!

g2g

bye

Alinca

i fell off a chair yesterday and hurt my stomach so i'm gonna go get an x-ray

can't talk long the stupid bi-otch is yelling about how we're not allowed to be on any online journals.

bye

Alinca

 i am screaming for help

i am suffering from manic depression and i am bi-polar

i need help and i think that i am ready to ask for it

bye

Alinca

I have finally picked a religion, and it is wicca.

I don't feel like talking so bye.

Alinca

hey things are getting better.  looking up college scholarships.  don't have really anything new.

gonna go

bye

Alinca

hey, the bad day has cont. and i just feel drained and tired of everyone.  someone people that i love to death i just don't want to be around today.  the depression is getting worse and i do need help but i don't want it b/c it will change me and jeremy loves me for who i am right now and if i get help it will change everything.  some good news though, jordan's dad is gonna be okay.

i'm gonna go

bye

Alinca

i've hit my depression day where i feel that i have lost all control and can't get a grip.  i have one of these days every other month or so. but yesterday i just lost it.  college is a nusense.  Jordan told me that they might have to do open heart surgery on his dad and i wanted to cry because it brought up the feelings about my dad that i haven't dealt with yet and don't want to.

g2g

bye

Alinca

if anyone has to piano sheet music or knows where to find it free on the internet for my heart will go on by celine dion please email it to me at Alinca@mindless.com

thx

Alinca

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bye

Alinca

hey i'm back again got some more time.

last night was what also built up today, jeremy told me that he wouldn't go to any dances with me including prom, i was upset as any girl would be

let me just explain what happened today in 1st block

jasmine was bad mouthing shawn behind his back and i went off on her so when i heard amanda talking about candice all i said was "like i told jasmine, you don't have the right to talk about people behind their backs" i said it calmly and she took it wrong and we started yelling at each other, i walked away and she cont. so i walked back and told her to grow some b*lls and say it to my face, and we yelled some more and i walked away i get not even 2 mins into 2nd block and i get called up to ms hegge's room (the counsler) and amanda had went up there and cried to her about our "fight" and i had to listen to 45 mins of "i just wanna know why you do the things you do when we 'fight', and i just want to resolve it" well if you wanna put this behind us then why for gods sakes did you sit there for 45 mins and ask again and again and keep bringing it up if you wanted to forget that the entire thing happened? some people just don't make sense sometimes, they say that they let something go and then sit there for 45 mins and bring it up over and over. eventually i got pissed enough and just tired of it and walked out of her office, ms hegge asked me what i wanted and i said to leave and not do this b.s. and amanda said if you wanna leave then go, so i did, i just got up and walked out. she has tried to talk to me a couple of times but i have ignored her or told her to f. off. ms hegge wanted us to repair the frienship but i've had it with amanda's crap and i don't need the stress of putting up with her crap. i feel so much better now that i don't have to deal with her anymore. she was upset because we have art, the play, and chours together but i can ignore and avoid her for 4 more months, so i don't care and want nothing else to do with her for the rest of my life, i'll dance on her grave when she dies. if she ever comes to me and need my help to survive, to bad so sad. that was the last straw, i wash my hands of her.

bye

Alinca

Today i got in a fight with Amanda W. she is so ahhh

if she thinks that I am ever going to talk to her again in a civil tone she is wrong

she also is wrong if she thinks that she is going to help any more on the project for mr king, jordan and kara both volunteered to help

g2g not supposed to be on the internet

bye

Alinca

next thing that just got checked off on my rebel list is that i pierced my tounge

don't have much time to write

g2g bye

Alinca

Hey it's Jan. here in school again, christmas was ok, i didn't kill anyone or give anyone a black eye this year.  although they were pushing for it, aunt shannon just kept staring at me and that just erks me when you know that someone is just staring at you and they don't say anything. Well g2g bye

Alinca

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Just got my English 4 exam and Macbeth exam to take home. the teacher thinks that i'm not gonna cheat but one does what one has to.

jeremy still hasn't fixed his truck yet but that is normal

pepper got killed he was hit by a car

they got a puppy, his name is tyson he is a pit bull

white with a few brown spot

he drools a lot

g2g my brother is waiting

bye

Alinca

hey home bound so far is okay

jeremy is gonna spend thur and fri with me to help

can't stay long to write

g2g bye

i'm here waiting for my homebound papers

homebound should be fun after i kill my family, they're gonna drive me up the wall

i'm reading a good book right now Smashed by Koren Zailckas, it's a good book. this is my second time reading it.

i hate my family so much they piss me off

g2g

bye

sick and things are crap.

sorry it took me so long to write

the want to put me on home bund till christmas, it's only 2 weeks so it wouldn't be that bad.

g2g

bye