its been awhile since i felt the need to recollect whats in sight. things have been in too much of a way for black and white. its just simply the way things are these days: hectic, mindless, and meaningless. its been that kind of tired pessimism and drowned sorrow that even to harp in its wallowed energy needs a huge effort to do. you really really want to feel the ascension again, that moment where you were on top for the world. for many its sweetness comes more often than others, and for the norm you get your fair share of those. thats why society is unkind to people who havent had their lucky breaks, believed to be evened out in the end. praytell, i hope those unlucky souls find a way to banish the overwhelming odds, and the relentless sense of helplessness: where the only way to taste its sweetness is in pockets of its adrenaline driven satisfaction, but all is known to be dark and miserable inside.
truth be told it was probably deserved what needs to be salvaged from created disarray, and it probably be a mountain to climb. at least the clearance to climb it has been done, but really the problem stemms deeper than what is seen. and even in nonchalant casual remarks that are as unexpected as yesterday or at the downturn of events deep down its known to start from deeper and furthur within, infesting the very fortunes from the very beginning.
and it is beginning to show. it musnt be allowed to fester but knowing it is one way to conquer. something must be done. something must stop it, before its too late.
and in order not to condemn the writing on the wall, lets hope the confidence and stance will rule it all, and fight whats hampered it to the bitter end. for whatever the outcome good or bad,
I have sailed the world beheld its wonders from the dardinells, to the mountains of Peru, But there's no place like London!
Sweeney Todd
No place like London...
Antony (spoken)
Mr. Todd, sir
Sweeney Todd
You are young... Life has been kind to you... You will learn.
Sweeney Todd (sung) There's a whole in the world like a great black pit and the vermin of the world inhabit it and its morals aren't worth what a pin can spit and it goes by the name of London. At the top of the hole sit the previlaged few Making mock of the vermin in the lonely zoo turning beauty to filth and greed... I too have sailed the world and seen its wonders, for the cruelty of men is as wonderous as Peru but there's no place like London! -- There was a barber and his wife and she was beautiful... a foolish barber and his wife. She was his reason for his life... and she was beautiful, and she was virtuous. And he was nieve. There was another man who saw that she was beautiful... A biased vulture of the law who, with a gesture of his claw removed the barber from his plate! And there was nothing but to wait! And she would fall! So soft! So young! So lost and oh so beautiful!
Antony (spoken)
The lady, sir, did she, sir, come?
Sweeney Todd (sung)
Ah, that was many years ago... I doubt if anyone would know. (spoken) Now leave me, Antony. There is somewhere I must go, something i must find out. Now, and alone.
Antony (spoken)
But surely we will meet again before I am off to Plymouth?
Sweeney Todd (spoken)
If you want you may well find me around Fleet Street. I wouldn't wander. (sung) There's a hole in the world like a great black pit and it's filled with people who are filled with shit! And the vermin of the world inhabit it!
~080108~ went to watch sweeney todd the demon barber at fleet street with shermaine today at tm. was nice to meet her again, fancy her teaching now haha. the show was really refreshing in my opinion. a typically english play style of movie, it was a change from the boring stereotypical movies we see nowadays. and the plot was nice too. except maybe some people may not like the gore( rachel might agree). but i think it was great. sweeney todd, or rather benjamin barker, well what he did is pure human frustrations by swinging his blades around, and i can understand i feel like doing that sometimes myself. ah wells. it left me a good impression, similar to the one V for Vendetta gave me. ah wells. then went to look for a motorbike helmet for shermaine, shes taking lessons thats why. alas! the shops all closed. ah well. ended up going to starbucks at simei to chill for a while. then we went off and i met alkhaff, hisham and ashiq. haven seen them for bloody long time la seriously. it was nice to see them again. played command and conquer for about 4 hours. it was fun this time coz we were getting good at it! haha. then it was a scramble to take the last bus home. for me though, i dunno what to feel anymore about going home. tired? exapperated? or just plain siann. i dunno. but thank god there are still these bros to keep me going.
ben barker shows what we need to do sometimes. he really does.
the best form of defense is attack.
and so i know it will inevitable end this way. but i cant say im not disappointed.
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find While I recall all the words you spoke to me Can't help but wish that I was there Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you But I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed ’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road There's no one here while the city sleeps and all the shops are closed Can't help but think of the times I've had with you Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed ’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again
Some search, never finding a way Before long, they waste away I found you, something told me to stay I gave in, to selfish ways And how I miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need the person who can be true to you I left her when I found her And now I wish I'd stayed ’Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired I'm missing you again oh no Once again
13/1/2008 - Manchester United 6 Newcastle United 0
went to chijmes today to watch chelsea v spurs and man u v newcastle with jialin, maw and yao guang last evening till this morning. was pretty fun. i think everyone sort of enjoyed themselves. was jialin's birthday yesterday haha. Happy Sweet 19! :) haha. wow she is really 19 already haha. im barely 18 lol. anyways, went back to chijmes to the place where we watched Man Utd v Bolton the last time with wan hsin and co. but thank god it was a far better result than the 0-1 shock defeat that day. in fact, it was bizzare. it was a 6-0 win to united!! you wouldnt have expected it really, especially with the halftime score of 0-0. the stage was set for a perfect day though, as arsenal slipped up to birmingham earlier in the day too. and yeah it turned sweet in the most bizzare way! 6 goals 3 by ronaldo, it was like a birthday gift for jialin haha. you deserve it girl !! =) so we are top of the table! poor maw, poor newcastle! lol. then walked to macs which the rest werent too pleased with my suggestion as it was far! haha. ended up at shaw macs, and alas we saw trannies! lol, they very eyesore leh. lol. poor ang mos fell for the trap too! lol. maw was squirming all the way! then took the mrt and bus back home heh. what a day! but sianz have to book in today :( haix, need to get things sorted at the moment. i hope things turn better really, ah well.
i'm glad i got to understand what it all meant today. and i'm blessed to know a friend like you, i really am. god bless :)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past
I found you here, now please just stay for a while I can move on with you around I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in No longer needed here so where do we go? Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if there is no eternal life?
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real
So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see I beg don't leave me
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real
Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background] I stand here alone Falling away from you, no chance to get back home I stand here alone Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
shortly after my last entry i could feel it coming. the surge of fervent energy. and i was going crazy in front of the tv. i guess i started talking crazy too huh. lol. by the time the liverpool v porto match came, i couldnt take it no more. it was like cold turkey. somehow it was MCR peering through the mayhem in my mind. It was just one of those crazy things, and i knew i just had to watch them! haha.
my fervent energy in the night made me wake up late today. supposed to meet wenling and curry puff at half ten. turned out they called me at 11 while i was still in bed. haix. got to sort that out. haha. so didnt meet at tampines then. went to take the train to meet them at jurong east instead, they wanted to go IMM. HAHA. I met tze kiat on the train. haha. so coincidental sia. he was going for angklung practice at SP. haha. ask me go for alumni but i said stupid MINDEF laa. lol. then i met them at Jurong East MRT. and i realized how i really had missed them, it was really really good to see them again. I rememeber that time, and how it turned out, and i wont forget. so there, we went shopping for a while before stopping for lunch. Wenling cannot decide between this and that la! hahaha. now i can see whats so amusing about shopping. LOL! was really really fun today, especially going to the daiso 2 bucks shop and watch them search for the biggest bargains and cutest displays. it was really like the old times huh haha =) then went back to tampines where i dropped off with wenling. she likes cool songs too :) and she liked afterlife too haha! LOL! was a pity it ended pretty quickly. i never taken a quicker train ride across the island before. and as i walked away from her after our goodbye, i hope ill see her again. and i hope we can relive the old times once more. its amazing how enriching a shopping trip can be =) Cheers mates!
met Nicholas GN by coincidence at Tampines Mall shortly afterwards. Just so happened to be in the neighbourhood. haha. had dinner sorta. got to claim my free pasta from pastamania, and we sat down to chat for a while. yet another reliving of the old times. Samuel should have been there heh. haha nantha still as imaginative (pervertic and analytical) as usual. HAHA! ah wells. Nantha had to go home and read his new books, so i scurried off to bugis to book the MCR concert.
many calls and organizing later, MCR concert, 11 december, Max Pavillion, Singapore Expo 8 pm. SET! haha. i couldnt say how satisfying that was. i just had to go or i was going crazy. sounds crazy enough but they are helluva good! haha. then met komar at Paradiz and played pool and lan for a while. yeah its good to keep yourself occupied instead of rotting home at home yea haha. even komar was shocked that bolton beat man u la haix. what a day for them to win too, when i so happen to decide to try and intensify the festivities and the atmosphere. instead it turned abit siann. haix. ah wells.
im torn for tmr. Fencing Farewell at serangoon gardens at 7 pm. The Cage at Kallang 5-7 pm. i just cant miss both. guess ill be a little late for the farewell.
If only i really knew what i was doing instead of doing what i really only know. whatever things fate need to bestow, i hope it comes true =)
28/11/2007 - au revior, CJC Prom Night 2007, Meritus Mandarin
and so the final day came. the official end to the 2 year tenure in CJC. I must say it has been exhilirating to say the least, not to mention a scintillating roller coaster ride. I didnt imagine how much of my character has been changed since secondary school. I can feel it now. The callous approach and fervent energy, coupled with a undeniable lust for danger. where did that innocence disappear to? or the strict adhereing of the normal student protocol. its been fun, its been one hell of a ride. and i cant say its been wrong at all, its been one to love and relish. and for now, im content with living the memory, and im not willing to let it go so soon. sweet 18!
prom began by rushing and scurrying all my things ready by half 2 last afternoon. then went to drop my things at my friend's place, there were a fair few of us there and we chilled abit before they went for a haircut. prom started about an hour later than stated, and by the time we got there half an hour later we were still early with all the throngs of our fellow school mates. it was rather astonishing and unusual to see them dressed so formally, especially linus and daniel's worth mentioning for their warlock hat and european violinist outfit. guess they were running for best dress haha. as i began looking at the many faces, many for the last in a long time, i settled to find my mates. our mates were rather content to settle with just chilling about behind where it was all happening, and it took us long to adjorn to the venue of out prom, where yellow dripping tapes under a HOLLYWOOD decor resembled the entrance and the theme of the evening. our table was a tad disappointing, we were blocked by the pillars and was right at the back. ah wells, its all for the company that night. the entertainment might have been dour, it might have been not as feisty as the st pats one in 2005, but hey, im not complaning. took as many photos as i could, and i must regret not taking with some, ah wells. and soon, it was all over, and i didnt believe it at first, but it was deja vu and goodbye. people became more sentimental, especially my mate dominic, who followed me from my primary school all the way to now. ive become accustomed to see all those familiar faces, knowing now our paths may not cross for a while. it was one special night in a way, but one that ended with a rather abrupt sense of deja vu.
went back to my mate's place for a while before heading for post prom at dxo. the club brought back the energy that has left me most of the year. and it was good making up for lost time. it was great feeling every rhythem and beat pulsating through my body, a feeling that hasnt really been in me since i last went. in short, it was fun, but it didnt last long enough, and ended quite early unfortunately. ah well, cant really expect the school post party to go full flow can it. or maybe it should. ah well. then went back to my mates place and my PES 2008 IS IMPROVING! haha. before we knew it, it was close to ten this morning, and i took the bus 14 home...passing by town...THE CJ haunt ill miss...the meritus mandarin...it was quiet now, like as if yesterday never happened....down nicoll highway...the stadium...and then i knew i was home...shuffling my footsteps through the doorway....knowing i left another big milestone of memory behind...
P.S Hancai next time dilute the vodka for urself k? dun get drunk again. HAHA. PP.S I wan go kbox! PPP.S I wan watch MCR leh.
its been nothing short of a turbulent week to say the least. the detractors might have said it was coming but even i was not prepared for what was in store. hearing your parents arguing with each other to start the week is never a good idea, and it did not do any good whatsoever to the rest of the week. i guess this week was meant to come, it was just a matter of time. As much as i knew this time would come sooner rather than later, i must say it had been really nice knowing them, and there was some good times i would never forget. the fact it took me the whole night to get over it spells how much about what it used to be, not to mention a trip to bugis amidst all the night workers. i guess with every ending comes a new beginning. its just a pity it has to end this way.
days like tuesday shoudnt happen again 3 weeks before A levels. The fickleness of the day, the ups and downs of it all. the adreanaline with the surge of vented energy was only a precursor to a spell of lethargy on the sidelines. all this comtemplating the fact that another day has gone by, and im no better at attempting my miracle. yeah my miracle has progressed very little, and it looks a very daunting task. even yesterday's melee scarmble at the end didnt seem to pacify the sodden week so far. it seems like i have been miscomprehended. but then again, how can i expect otherwise when i cant even comprehend myself.
and so it finally came. the tinge of deja vu lingered on and on for what seemed like eternity. the fact that it hasnt even sunken in a new week later tells its own story. this phase in my life had come and gone. two years short. and in it all contained what was the very essence of my existence, its purpose and more. for what i learnt in this two years was what encapsulated my whole life. and i must say, despite all the difficulties, i found it hard coming to terms wioth graduating, and like all things good, i leave with a tinge of sadness. but memories will continue to linger till my brain ceases to function. i must thanks T35. its been an experience i will never forget. and its been one i will remember for the rest of my life, particularly the good times. i am also grateful and nostalgic for the final day, where we had our lunch at new york new york at ang mo kio hub, and then the mahjong at tiffy's place. honestly, im gonna miss my class. im really gonna miss T35, especially the 1st year, and CJC. im gonna miss the fencing ppl too. its been far too short. far too short. i really really enjoyed my time in fencing. i just wished it was longer, and that i had gone more often last year. oh well, no time for regrets, time to look forward and stay positive. im gonna miss some people. i really am. most of them from fencing, my mates from fencing and all around school. ive certainly met many nice people from all over the cohort, and i thank god to have met them. i will never forget them. 3 more weeks. 3 weeks to the crossroads of my destiny. i know i have mountains of preparations to climb..i slacked too much. i just hope its not too late.
words cannot really describe how i feel. its beyond literary and visual expressions.
and like the smell of fresh mountain air and the coolness of dripping morning dew, all good things will end. for every ending comes a new beginning.
This shining city built of gold, a far cry from innocence, There's more than meets the eye round here, look to the waters of the deep. A city of evil. There sat a seven-headed beast, ten horns raised from his head. Symbolic woman sits on his throne, but hatred strips her and leaves her naked. The Beast and the Harlot.
She's a dwelling place for demons. She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy burden, makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings. Fallen now is Babylon the Great.
The city dressed in jewels and gold, fine linen, myrrh with pearls. Her plagues have come all at once as her mourners watch her burn. Destroyed in an hour. Merchants and captains of the world, sailors, navigators too. Will weep and mourn this loss with her sins piled to the sky, The Beast and the Harlot.
She's a dwelling place for demons. She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy burden, makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings. Fallen now is Babylon the Great.
The day has come for all us sinners. If you're not a servant, you'll be struck to the ground. Flee the burning, greedy city. Lookin' back on her to see there's nothing around.
I don't believe in fairytales and no one wants to go to hell. You've made the wrong decision and it's easy to see. Now if you wanna serve above or be a king below with us, You're welcome to the city where your future is set forever.
She's a dwelling place for demons. She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy burden, makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings. Fallen now is Babylon the Great.
She's a dwelling place for demons. She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy burden, makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings. Fallen now is Babylon the Great.
its caught me. i fell for its dazzling trance and dizzling lights. my legs fell into a rapport, in tandem. a waltz started to play in the nearby fire, and my legs soon danced in accordance with impeccable symphony. it did seem like a brilliant setting, one where no other options to bereft it could be fathomed. it was like one day out of your lives, one day out of your very self. and soon, the melody caught the rest of me, and every sinewand fibre of skin in me sang its tune and melody. i was in a world of unknown. i world where i know no one including myself. and there i was chasing the shadow of myself, and my dreams, and i knew what a deadly charm on human sin had done. its a near impossible task on a fresh pair of minds let alone one gone astray and led to the slaughter beyond recognization. ive had my confidence shattered, and dirty linen hung out to dry. suddenly, the bright lights didnt seem like it was before. it should be. it should have been a glofying symhony, a victory lap to glorify all u stood for. but its now just a mere scarmble for survival. and it was better never to have known modern society and its bright light in such naiviety and lack of detail. for all i get out of it more of the recollection of what went misled and gone.
man i miss those days of ascension. i could say i missed those days. but it had to be returned to fate. i never really had them in the first place.
The familiar feeling is back. It came as expected, like a train bang on schedule. It must have been more than a uncanny resemblance or coincidence that i have felt its chilling effects all too many times before. It will be the same story if you believe in fate, or predestined consequences. Yet it has still swung by surprise, as the path once trodden still feels very much the uncharted.Its like an unstoppable trance, where before spelt dire results. None will be as crucial as this pending one though. I knew it would come to this moment. This moment where i would have to wrestle my demons as i try to find my sanity in my own little realm of insanity. The pursuit of more answers have only led to more questions, and the questions have often just enveloped me in a deeper circle. The more i try to find the more i lose. and when i do find it i realize how much more i must gain to stop losing. Soounds complicated but thats life. This is just too familiar. This is just all too familiar. But the irony is im never going to be familiar with this.
Brandon Wong DOB:12 Nov 1989 E-mail:brandon_wong89@hotmail.com School: Catholic Junior College (2T35) Hobbies: Soccer,Tennis, Cycling, Pool.. Supports: Manchester United Ferrari Rafael Nadal Avenged Sevenfold
