13/7/2009 -
Posted in Unspecified
Once again life and its frailities came to the fold,
which i so fervently tried to reject but gained no foothold,
the ultimate prize it was never meant to be,
for now even a glimpse of simple normality will set me free.
life at its best drug tendencies,
seemingly ever so bright in blissful harmony,
a casanova wrought in euphoric symphony,
but deep amidst the darkness i silently knew it was a silent misled cacophony.
so why does fate always set our hopes so high?
why should destiny tempt us then deny us the simplest of requests?
in the churning ephedrine of my adreanaline and the burning chasm of my heart,
is what i yearn for diabolically impossible unless i tear myself apart?
the gentlest of waves even seem to mock me as i pour forth silently my mortal wounded soul,
where underneath my cheerful facade lay a heavy mental weight that taken toll,
my weathered conscience wonders when ill breathe my last,
where living felt like death and dying a peaceful blast.
i dont expect things to drastically change even when i get old,
unless i tear myself apart and my confidence turns strong and bold,
but society is edging beyond cruelty in competition and lack of moral understanding,
where people like me need more than just simple comprehending.
maybe then i should long the day i breathe my last,
when finally i can leave my pain to the rain and gust,
where my pain is nothing at all compared to the misfortune,
of silly folly lethargy which eventually sang my deathtune.
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