31/8/2009 -
Posted in Unspecified
i knew this feeling will come again,
and despite the sense of things being upbeat,
happenings turning somewhat positively,
it still ended up like what might have been.
i sensuate the best of possibilities,
its whiff of probability more than a whisker away,
but yet its cruelly always a step too far,
a moment too unfathomable at the present.
and still i continue to dream,
but half the battle is lost from self belief,
for the total lack of it to err on the side of caution,
to prevent further misery and total damnation.
i feel my heart like a broken hourglass,
my blood sipping slowly but surely,
until my time is up,
till ive lived though my borrowed time.
and i long the day i can live with confidence,
reap the joys of even a life of normality,
where i can really smile and celebrate in epiphany,
will it ever become a reality?
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