24/9/2005 - finding my silver lining

trying to find my silver lining,

but its like a needle in a haystack,

wheres the pot of gold over the rainbow?

for me i cant even find the rainbow(sigh).

why the massive activation energy needed to get me going?

why the daily dread and drag of necessary motions?

we people should take the initiative,

but its leaving me a fugitive...

lost in the woods,

peering through the dense foliage,

trying to find the way back,

by trodden path,

by searing light,

by calls of flight,

by dark of night.

for thy deed must be done,

the chalice must be filled,

or the cauldron is ready to trap me in its effervecence,

and its culling scent of rot.

"i just want to be,

safe in my own skin,

but im so lonely i dont even want to be with myself anymore....."

drown out vices from my neurotic waves,

down the kicks of the football i so crave,

down the hand from the board games i play,

breathe new life to my heart each new day.....

for all is needed to summon this recovery.....

and i need all the help i can get.....

lost in my own world....BMW

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