7/3/2006 - no surprise

no surprise..things are escalating out of control at the moment..since the o level results came out things have been pretty dire...yesterday my situation was screwed results,disarrayed posting situation,no news of appeals and a failing social life..now,a new addition berates me of my already crumbling foundation..i felt it coming since the posting last friday,but it took until today for me to feel its full flow...

Woke up at 6.30 am to the tune of an sms..Wigan 1 Man United 2....well,i should be happy right? but no...my brain was anaestized,my cough phlem was billowing all over the bed  mattress,the worst flu(if u could call it that) i ever had yet...felt quite feverish as well..as i thought about SRJC and the prospects of the day,i wanted to let out a cry of frustration...alas,my throat meant i was speechless..speechless and helpless..i told myself its nothing much,but it continued...my legs went soft..

dragged to the doctor at 9+...so much for wanting to go early...an hour wait and a 5min check-up..2 days of MC..i was honestly very very tired...yearned to return home...the mutated viruses nowadays do take some beating...yeah and now my brain has the constant throbbing for the appeals...i will be sidelined tommorow as well...Boredom,Isolation,Devastation...its really manifesting me at the moment...affecting me internally..doc said my throat is really really bad...i couldnt speak today..if i could my voice is just so weak..it would help if my parents are understanding...but sigh....

appeals appeals appeals...what comes comes..but i hope it comes sooner or later...for many appeals is just an upgrade..just a bonus...for me though,its my lifeline..sigh...feeling hotter than my com..there we go again..yes im taking my bloody medicine already stop nagging!! wtf...