21/3/2006 - yet another choice to rue

annoucement today...yeah calling all the band people into cjc band...now i come to rue accepting the appeal...in many ways now...oh well...what to do life is like that...and im feeling rather inferior today la...yet again feeling pissed with myself...fragility of a ego,the softness of the flesh...alienating me from bliss is not a good prospect...its hard to come back after that...enjoying cj no doubt...especially the class haha...1T35 is a great class!! but am i good enough...same for cjc band..am i good enough? really i too slack la...shit man im in no man land...honestly failure is on my mind,doubt clouds my optimism...i dunno what are my talents now..Jack of all trades master of none...sigh...

yeah so the school overall was great today...had pe today...haha Samuel borrowed my attire and returned it after my pe lesson which is after his!! and he sweat more than me lol!! haha but it was ok in the end coz i needed a extra set anyway haha..then finished lesson at around 1300-1400 or something..then went to Plaza Singapura with my class 1T35...yeah first time and it was kind of fun...got to know them better haha..had a stop at far east plaza...detour at the nearby subway,daniel was talking cock as usual it was fun haha...and alicia peters couldnt stop laughing lol..yeah and then we took a train to PS...which was like so near lol...then ate at Long John Silvers..the manager had a surprise birthday cake sang by us haha...then went to watch a movie V for Vendetta...NC-16 hehe cool man..my first one lol..it was fun...with a strong political message haha...yeah and then well i went home..and i shall skip the formalities...and yeah i leave thinking of what could have been,what has been, and what could be...yeah thats all for now...