26/3/2006 - i left my heart in Tampines

yes..this feeling i have now is weird..its a feeling of well...i dont know...its not nothingness,its not depression,its not any feeling..in fact im numbed i think..ah well...this last 3 days have been well bizarre to say the least...despite the fact i like went to town like far east plaza,peace centre to go subway and LAN and all,something is obviously missing...something to call upon the feelings of the well-being of a person,something to shape a person...wonder...could fencing be the solution? rugby? tennis? or the band again...sigh...

okok enough covering the last few days....today i set out at 0850 to meet wen ling and khairiyah at tampines interchange...yeah i went to the east today...yeah!! =) miss the east yeah haha..thought i was going to be late at the time arranged at 0930 postponed to 0945..pleasantly surprised that the 12 and the MRT from kallang to tampines was efficient and immaculate...i reached at about 0947...quite good if u take into account i waited for 12 until 0917 lol..yeah i met them to exchange notes,and also to catch up yeah...i miss them la...wished i was in tpjc..i would never pass this way again sigh..having said that cjc is seriously not bad...my class is fantastic..but understand my heart is still in tampines and 06S06..yeah...so we ate at Macs,we chatted,we left wen ling's skirt to alter,we went around looking at stuff,we went drinking at starbucks,i went scampering to the atm having ordered my drink and realized i havent any money...thanks wenling u saved my skin!! haha...and we chatted and worked and exchanged and copied notes...wenling was so kind to help me with my chinese homework haha...and my catholic welfare ticket too=) yeah...that was fun and enjoyable yeah...was frustrated i couldnt do the tutorial question 5 for maths...frustrating!! yeah..and then before u know it was 1530...khairiyah had to go home,so we split ways,i followed wenling to photocopy some notes and collect her skirt...then we split ways...sad la..they are such such good friends...i miss them la=(

then salivated the eastern atmosphere from 1600-1700 before meeting farhan at tampines interchange again and taking the 15 to parkway...met hakim and then played pool before the rest followed suit..today the attendance was alot..there was hisham,dinie,me,farhan,hakim,roshan,sujinder,mandeep,glen roberts and ashiq...yeah then we went to eat at hawkertiam,which is next to KSC almost haha...well ts cheap and good..i shall earmark it haha..ate until 2300 then i went home...lazed around until now,0530..and i still havent hit the sack haha...fun eh? parents not at home until monday...lolx...

realized i been rather ignorant coming to bus rides...i can take 12 to the kallang bus depot and then 985 to cjc...same direction all the time!! should be faster than taking the 608 or 196 to 966 combi..go wrong direction first so frustrating haha...but i still miss tpjc i really do...no offence to cjc or 1T35 but i miss 06S06 and TPJC..sigh...what should i do? what should i feel? its really weird la...in cjc its been great so far..but i havent been the person i want to be...my heart lies in Tampines..my soul lies in the East..and my bones shall not rest in Chua Chu Kang..but from Kallang to Tampines or Pasir Ris...wished i went to the east everyday like i used to...Tampines was enriching today la...wished i stayed in TPJC..yeah im weird la...yeah im crazy la...i dunno what to think at the moment..i cant help thinking i should have stayed in TPJC...was really fun la...especially before results came out PAE period...super fun la..and of course before valentine week period lol...but after that i found and developed new friends la...and they have been fantastic..i miss you all!! special dedication to wen ling and khairiyah...both 17 whilst im not even 16 1/2 lol...da jies..we should meet at least once a fortnight ok? and S06,meet sometime ok? miss ya all..feeling and contemplating...the clock ticks,0537..i dont want the time to move forward...i want it to move backward...i neednt it to be sec 3 anymore...just turn back to PAE...turn back to Tampines..coz i left my heart in Tampines...sigh=(