18/5/2006 - post Champions League Final 2006

right...so it finished Barcelona 2 Arsenal 1...it was something i find pretty hard done by...i mean...im not sure whether the best team won....the referee was very very poor...even as a man united fan, poor poor arsenal...lehmann was probable justifiable...but the kicks and fouls by the barce players on arsenal not only did not get any consequence duly deserved, but the arsenal players got carded!! like henry!! disgraceful!!enough said..so much for ronaldinho v henry...they were poor....very very poor...henrik larsson was the man for me....top draw....but then, arsenal, having taken the shock 1-0 lead they deserve, should ahve closed shop or as morinho put park a bus in front of their goalmouth..for in a 2 minute frenzy....larsson set up eto'o and the winner....game over...arsenal remain behind english clubs liverpool (5), man united (2), nott forest (2), aston villa (1)...well...their squad as quoted by wenger had overachieved...and as quoted by henry, he is proud of the team...and in a little more displeasure, signalled his intentions of regards to the norwegian ref," if you didnt want us to win you should have said so from the start" he spoke of his desire to win the covted title in football to add to his collection of world cup and european cup...now though..he is left with bruises from injustice done to him from barcelona players...hnery moving to barce? not a chance...

its been Spain's fortnight..Sevilla beat Middlebrough 4-0 to win the UEFA Cup, Fernando Alonso beat Michael Shumacher by 17+ sec to win the circuit de catalunya...Rafael Nadal beat Federer in 5 sets to win the italian open, as well as extending his unbeaten run to 53 matches on clay...and now Barcelona beating Arsenal in circumstances but credit for their victory....the motion it certainly has been with Spain, cant say the same about me though, had a relatively pressing night in the build up to the match and left the match more distressed..suddenly nothing seemed right anymore, suddenly nothing seemed worth doing..woke up a heap of mess to saunter to the sub-par cjc hall and listen to some talk, and then lambasted my way through econs tutorial. The came the moment of truth, desolateness enveloped me..i began thinking and thinking.....it was lethargic spurts of desperation, with the soul inching to punch the wall...it was bad...i skipped 4 hours of class today...i drowned myself in bridge,and other vices...yes it was fun, but i dun seem to care, im wrestling an internal obstacle, its suffocating.and look, i have econs, chem and gp test tommorow, i got my gp and chem teacher to worry about for skipping their class(barred from test??) and one lingering thought...did i fucking take the right combi? now i realized....did i fucking take the right combi?? im fucking myself up man...its gonna change my life...the notion has been always to take CME,P...but now im thinking im wasting my secondary school background taking 1 H2 science sub...should have taken PCM,L? or even CME,L? man..i never think before i act..made glaring mistakes today..stumbled all over the place...its getting no better...my wound is getting worse..yeah fell into a drain last friday. yeah..things are not all too well...studies are really bad, my life is screwed up...tommorow is going to be a wild day...and i still dont know what im gonna do about her..should i ask her? today is not a good day man...feeling chaffed...thats it...im dead tommmorow...what am i going to do to salvage myself? and model it after my dreams? dreams are meant to be made not broken..oh feeling the fragility of my bruised soul,my crushed ego, my breaking heart and my stalling brain...tumble tumeble tumble...fall fall fall....what next?