13/7/2006 - have you ever wondered

have you ever wondered,

where your regrets chanced from,

moments after the step so certain,

went crumbling head on.

have you ever wondered,

why things seem ever so right,

but only backfired,

like a poison dart in the night.

have you ever wondered,

doing things or the lack of it,

the lacklustreness it seems to bring,

with it reaping malice torment and sin.

have you ever wondered,

what might have been,

if you filled the chalice you waited to fill,

how things would just flow your way.

have you ever wondered,

the pitfalls of life,

so stifling yet subtle,

like salted wounds pierced by shards of ice.

have you ever wondered,

the purpose of life,

the feeble faith,

crushed with cold reality in the swirling wind.

have you ever wondered,

why you even think at all,

the purpose of your existance,

art thou contribute what to thee earth?

have you ever wondered,

what fate might be,

but a thorn in one's flesh,

and a barb in one's foot.

have you ever wondered,

what life could be,

so utopic and free,

but alas the bliss is not to be.

have you ever wondered,

why things dont turn out right,

why the day deafens of cold silence,

and pangs of pain echo right through the night.

have you ever wondered,

why things crush down upon you,

like a gulloitine waiting to slice your spleen,

have you ever wondered?

have you ever wondered,

why you wondered at all,

why the wondering,

means nothing at all.

solace needed.