21/7/2006 - EOM proves elusive again
ok.today was not exactly a fantastic day.yeah, in fact it was nothing short of a disaster. yeah, and well, yet another day goes by without doing the EOM, or anything on the academic side for that matter. i guess ill be rather neutral and unpoetically neutral and literal today in that it was a day of reckoning. yes, it was yet another one of those days, where cold realization really grips you more than the skin of the teeth. talking about more than the superlatives here. you cant just say none the matter as these things will surface once again once subsided. and yet you know you cant say too much because i admit i get the feeling and i know 1T35 is going to grow tired of all this antics, no matter how uncontrollable and detrimental it can be. its perfectly human. yes, and i shall strive to unlearn those stuff i learnt, and of course adopt more than common rationale (i hope) in the thinking process. yes, gone was the truly innocent boy who silently walked into st patrick's all those 4 years ago, and the truly lost guy sauntering into self destruction just last year. you think about how much lost: 4E1, optimum academic oppurtunity after sec 3, all washed by folly and demise. its looking even worse as the slide looks set to continue at the current trend. yes, i can safetly say that the crux of the depression today, or the whole of it for the matter, was on how daunting the prospects could behold. im one of real cold pessimism, but this is really hard cold reality, not just some whimsical dark nightmare.yeah, no question after mentioning all this im singing a sad cliche that could be a cruel irony as i look back in life: the chalice must be filled. yes, the mantra of going to school has to be relearnt, rethought, reintroduced. i come to realize, and yes, kindergarten results do come back to haunt you, i rememeber i had really really poor motoring skills. this is still evident in the catch up game i play today. haix, seeking solace to release the tension inside is absolutely necessary, but i feel people are getting chuffed hearing my misery all the time. ho-hum, yeah, its time of my pandelic swift to take a trip back memory lane, remember that boy in 1E2, soaking all in a sponge, and swooping innocently without a care in the world, although hanging precariously in the social ladder?yes, it was a mortally embarrassing and unsatisfying, too goody-to shoes for a caricature of a human life. but hey, those were better days. Never missed SPSMB more than ever now, the unity is ever so strong, yeah, united in brotherhood, wished i could feel the same for fencing, where sadly im really feeling out of place, out of position and out of talent. yeah, its been rather nerve-wrecking in fencing to be honest, i only have myself to blame for this demise, for not coming for so long. damn my sense of priority, and my over obsession in passion, yes, soccer again. familarity bites. thankfully the last practice was a fresh bite of the cherry, and i rather enjoyed it to be honest.yeah must thank my mates yeah, i really hope i can fit in, coz i can tell you its a nasty feeling to have. yeah, and my feelings have been really habitual recently, it really is nerve-wrecking and to a certain extend enriching.yeah, and i really need to get my physical training up man, just to say simply some of the daunting thoughts harboured today, yeah its necessary. and rejuvenation is yet again needed mentally, psychologically, socially etc. yeah, its so bloody cliche for me,all i can say now is Forza Destino- Force of Destiny...Potest Qui Vult.
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Brandon Wong DOB:12 Nov 1989 E-mail:brandon_wong89@hotmail.com School: Catholic Junior College (2T35) Hobbies: Soccer,Tennis, Cycling, Pool.. Supports: Manchester United Ferrari Rafael Nadal Avenged Sevenfold
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