25/7/2006 - life's curvatures

had 2 hours of torment last night. the cough and sore throat was really bad, really worse than most ive been through. was more relieved than glad to awaken to the tunes of dawn this morning. thinking about how things looked so drastic last night. it felt like my lungs would give way. they say everything happens for a reason. was i fulfilling my destiny or playing with my fate? either way, somehow the storm calmed. and i must say was glad i really did not suffer much of the illness in school today. not at all really, bar a cough here and there, and the throat was getting better. yeah, must be the bug, my mum has been down with flu for 3 weeks and counting now,ah well. life has its way of making things look ever so bleak and ever so bright in a blink of an eye. but sometimes, they dont give you a blinking chance. i cant give this minor health setback as an excuse to deter from my academic goals, not that it isnt deterred when im well anyway. haix. life's path is there to walk, why is the activation energy so bloodily excruciatingly impossible. ill be frank here, i cant keep this any longer. internal self destruction looms. yes, i will try and taper away from this shadowy consequences, but it seems the dearth has already been written in blood and bone.

didnt really do much today. i must say i enjoyed my debut kbox today. yes, my sore throat is gone now yay. paid for 2 hours but sang for 4 hours and 15 minutes. yes, the four of us michele, xiao ting, cheang yuan and me paid only 41 in total and sang at cine after school. was cool, rather enjoyed it, and my throat was really better after al that singing and straining to reach the high notes. lol, cough is really bad though yet again. and the nose as well, hopefully by pe tommorow things would have cleared up. yes, i have yet to complete my EOM, submitted my GP and Chem File, or done my donations. I have yet to make out for time lost with some people, yet to study and keep in pace, yet to do all the mischalleneous stuff i want. I am dying to pick up the drum sticks again. i really should.. haix...but it really is not the time is it. i shant say the way shows where the way goes and all that rightful sayings now, cause it does not have any effect on me sadly. all i got to say is life's curvatures, you are just a bob in the ocean, just hope fate doesnt sink you..now this EOM article better work, you see here we go again, this EOM article better work when i come back to it TOMMOROW and doing all the above stuff TOMMOROW...habits really die hard...haix...not all things looking bleak, but that is just some temporary bliss at the moment. i hope im proven wrong ok.