19/8/2006 - boulevard of waiting dreams

ouch. felt my body giving way as i passed the ball. it was a botched effort, one where only a snail would have been proud of. BAM! i hit the concrete floor on my left side. Crush! it was done. the fragility of the flesh exposed, ever the frustrations kindling from an abundance of energy. that was wednesday. but then again, when last was i ever at 100%. despite some intentions today got off really sluggishly. really need to improve my mental strength. slept past fencing today, yet another missed oppurtunity to go fencing today. haix, i can get up at 4am to send people off at the airport and i cant even get up at half 7 for fencing. really pissed with myself. then settled into a futile start revising in the morning, before i really gave up after 45 minutes. it looks bleak. thats all i did today. the onus of the o levels have come back haunting, wanting. it really looks uphill. its really a mentally deficiency. thats why i cant be the person i want to be. i want to add the word YET but even that would need a miracle.

Went to parkway then roxy sqaure today. saved about 17 bucks on haircut as the roxy one was like 8 bucks only. but its freaking short!  damn i hate it. haix. so much for the effort =( yeah. and now i find that Miss Tan has sent her ultimatum. PW Deadline by wednesday! lucky i came online today. or else it really would be a DEAD-LINE. i shant say what mountains of things to do i have accumilated. i have accumilated things i should not have done as well. but what the hell. is what i do from here right. i draw inspiration, i draw life's values, i draw charisma. i hope its good, for Tolkien has re-shown the way forward. nothing is impossible. Sheffield United shown that today with what could have been a win but nonetheless a fantastic draw against Liverpool. why cant i be the Sheffield United, Andy Murray (beat Federer in straight sets) or Wigan? must i be a Sunderland?

nothings peaking at the moment,

but i hope things will turn out right.

it better be.

looking forward not backwards,

some things are just not meant to be,

just got to accept it and move on right?

the soul yearns for romance,
romance eludes the soul,
for to find something you cant seek it,
for things will come when u least expect it.
irresistable is the will of the flesh,
depleting the charm of the soul,
but the mind must take control,
all bodes well where the brain holds.

hoping for the golden day.
so far things are like not good,
but no matter how bad i have made it look better,
feel better,
and it worked.
but im just papering the cracks so far,
the real rejuvenation must be done.
SHU NENG SHENG QIAO

Song of the Day: Qi Shi Jing Shen- Jolene Tsai

chronicles ended 2228...

P.S Michele and Xiao Ting really pro in rapping Qi Shi Jing Shen.. Loved it!! =)