23/8/2006 - frenzied mind
frenzy. what a frenzied mind. was really just past in a whiz this day, and things gone in a blist. the adreanaline, the seizures, the abject humilation and mortal embarassment, the blind trust, the cunning vice...the stroke of defining luck..it was all there as god played dices on my life. it was like a lottery of luck amidst living in a mortal trance, literally floating in surpassed contemplation, besotted with things just vetted by the air which filled the blankness in my mind. was a real zombie today, really was. i could have reacted 2 hours later bar a serious injury. yeah well, things went by fast and crucial didnt they today. and damn alicia peters will be raving mad to find out i took her EOM the day before comments day. well well well, moments of memory discourse will set by here and then now wont it? things arent real to me, im in a dream. or rather nightmare? or both?? whatever, just wake me up!!
where shall i start.late for school, sauntering into a packed hall for some AIDS talk (seems apt for a certain select of PW members in my class). then erm had gp(rather useless). and mother tongue (need i explain??), got so dire and futile i resorted to writing an essay why i think Man. United will win the Premiership. not completed. save for another Mother Tongue annilation of the senile mind haha. Chem was good. Chem was good. im beginning to really love Chem. lets hope i didnt miss muuch for SPA 2 now ok? or i might as well die now.Physics was a near death. I failed mid-year and i needed to get a sub-pass or i was in risk of being asked some serious rhetorical consequences. yeah. initial results: 6/25..Hmm..i was staring at possibly J1 2007 in my face. and luckily it turned to: 6ퟭ=11/25. not einstein i know but its a sub-pass. haix. terrible. absolutely terrible. wished i was smart and try and PREPARE MYSELF!! by right i should have finished the maths preparation for promos. i have gone through everything, but im so rusty it counts for nothing. well lets say my pillar of strength is as strong as a document connoted by the Duke of Cornwall in Mandarin blown in the monsoons of Taipei. yeah, was struggling with the Maclaurin's and took me a while to figure it out. yeah. then PE. came late and got 5 rounds. by end of 1st round i said one more round while everybody else done their mandatory 2. ran on my own lol...haha...then the handball. hardly saw the ball today. Vic's goal caught me unaware haha. nice one! but it shook my boredom in clutching air for 59 minutes. well well well. then remembered i had to do that condemed piece of nonsense EOM, and night study proved my oppurtunity cost. and a entourage of 2 accompanied me to dine and drink in town. the esquires were cunning and damning. damning then about sps. hmpf. no insults to the motherschool!! then as i soon found out but not to be written here, what a git! wtf, they actually became 'prophets' in kind again. oh things werent the same as i heard it whileing away time at 9. it was a jolt, a poison dart ashen on a golden platter, but it was as clear as the dark sky. i was pissed and my dirty linen hanged for all to see. adrenaline pumped. but none of those packets of energy in a right manner. it was those of what some call teenage palaver syndrome, as the ultrasound plummeted my sanity to new lows, i found hard to find my heart in place. racing forward in blindless motion...cascading ravagely like a crude moose on ice. it was a feeling of a hammer on the wall. BAM BAM BAM!! BAM BAM BAM!! it didnt go. and the extravegeance was coupled with visitors. yeah and really threw my life off balance!! ahhhhh. lest not forget thou hasnt not done thy blessings, shalt not be in any way ungrateful. yeah, i owe some thanks to them, alicia lim for printing my EOM draft 3. yeap. its been a turmoil. what you called a novatic aura of the sith and the complicated pathological mind. never should i want to darken this path. wth. i really am crazy!!
did nothing of studying today. just EOM. and alot of things now in the spotlight. its not pretty viewing. in fact its terrifying. as the kaleidoscope of another day transcends on the curtains of my wounded skin, it dawns upon how much more i need to play catch up in every sense of that word. no two ways about it. this is a crisis. no amount can justify this. and so yet again the wind blows, the time goes. but my life hasnt. what is me to do? plenty i had wanted to say, plenty i have thought, plenty to do. but now its time to see the pandelic rush of the chronological order. whilst i wish the latter would be reversed, the contrary is true. the cyberwall is turning into a mindless rant sigh. got really insane that day. really really. and its not 'GOODY' from thin blue line or 'STICKIN 2 NEEDLES ON YOUR KNICKERS AND PUT THEM ON YOUR HEAD' in black adder kind of madness comedy. for one simple reason: no one is laughing. bar the wind that crackles and beats the living compositions of my bits. awaiting the day god throws a double six...
Need a break.
oh yeah and while waiting for that damned bus to come. i think i heard this girl say hi, didnt react coz was shocked in wonderment due to unfamilarity. dont know where she was from, chij pinnafore but uncanny resemblance to someone i know in sajc. so i was thinking who she was on my way home on the 14. same bus-alighted. same road taken. shes my freaking neighbour! not next door but wth. Brandon cant remember the neighbourhood anymore, not since the stupid construction after construction started. all i can say is: you showed all how ignorant is thee, and how a frog in the well is a undulating stingray in a pool of sharks. ho-hum. blame yi liang. im crazy. make that very.
Jukebox: Boulevard of Broken Dreams-Greenday
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Brandon Wong DOB:12 Nov 1989 E-mail:brandon_wong89@hotmail.com School: Catholic Junior College (2T35) Hobbies: Soccer,Tennis, Cycling, Pool.. Supports: Manchester United Ferrari Rafael Nadal Avenged Sevenfold
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