3/9/2006 - singing away thursday blues
the music starts. it pipes in its familarity, its comfortness. i burst into its beat, its tango, its rhythm. it dawns back two years, it was sec 3 common test 2, about the same time. bio test beckoned then...as i reminisced back again, i donned my garment then, the sps black singlet. yes, its all coming back now, as i sang away thursday's blues. yes, been at that again. and the song well, it always proved a turning point. only at that time, it brought me down from ascendency- i was poised for academic perfection. or so i thought. almost 730 days later, and many mental revolutions later, i played that song again. it reeked of its memory, the way it sucked my life away its its beat, and how it tore me apart. this time, i fought my nemesis with the only weapon i saw fit- i couldnt have been worst off then thursday. i couldnt be in a worst academic state. the search, the buttons, the wait. it was done. i was filled in it once more. ths time though, where it was a poision slowly flowing into me the last time, it just proved a gentle healing nostaglia...ho-hum....i realize....i realize...my mind was lifted amidst all today's hazes, walls, and the prospects of the future plumetting my sored brain. where i thought i found the source of rejuvenation and healing i found a total loss of support. for once, i was left to lament on how solitude is such insanity, the last 2 days a virtual prison effectively. but the key has been found, like an obvious answer overlooked. i realized, no matter how much ive grown, or thought i moved on...no matter how much i thought of it as refuse and discard in the past...its my source of help now...my source for pride....my input of joy....my chance to let go my sorrows...Sec 3E1...flying high...Bio exam coming...that was the day they took my life away... i want it back....yes...it does confirm what i have been feeling recently...when all else fails you have your band of brothers...band of brothers...no one can ever understand unless they experienced it...i missed them terribly on terrible thursday...i realize i can only count on them now in this dire times...the Hishams...the dons....the jeremys...the rishiks....the hamzas....the clarences...i cant ask for a better band of brothers....EVER....i wanted to move on....to show i didnt need them and was capable of it....i was so wrong....the world doesnt understand us like WE do...no one can give me the comfort, the charisma, the atmosphere like we did. how ignorant was i to search for any other means...that is only for the exceptions like justin theo...im no exception...actually i am...but not in a good way...actually total work studied the last 48 hours =0..so well, im going from bad to worse....its all that music....that time that changed my life...but it again reminds me the way i can get back...like the antidote in its very poison...SPS. how i miss them...how proud ive been to have spent 4 years associated with the school, the people..its a legacy...its the band of brothers i know i can turn to...no two ways about it...god bless them...Potest Qui Vult...its never too late....Practicality is the key...i gotta love me life...love me mind..love me actions...love me actions...i just have to...or i can just give up and kill myself...
Jukebox: Californication- Red Hot Chilli Peppers
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Brandon Wong DOB:12 Nov 1989 E-mail:brandon_wong89@hotmail.com School: Catholic Junior College (2T35) Hobbies: Soccer,Tennis, Cycling, Pool.. Supports: Manchester United Ferrari Rafael Nadal Avenged Sevenfold
My Top 10 Songs
1. TEARS DONT FALL- BFMV
2. STRENGTH OF THE WORLD - A7X
3. BLEEDING HEARTS- ATREYU
4. SEIZE THE DAY- A7X
5. BECOMING THE BULL- ATREYU
6. SECOND HEARTBEAT- A7X
7. BLINDED IN CHAINS-A7X
8. BEAST AND THE HARLOT- A7X
9. THE WICKED END- A7X
10. EX's AND OH's- ATREYU
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