7/4/2008 - the beginning of an end

its been awhile since i felt the need to recollect whats in sight. things have been in too much of a way for black and white. its just simply the way things are these days: hectic, mindless, and meaningless. its been that kind of tired pessimism and drowned sorrow that even to harp in its wallowed energy needs a huge effort to do. you really really want to feel the ascension again, that moment where you were on top for the world. for many its sweetness comes more often than others, and for the norm you get your fair share of those. thats why society is unkind to people who havent had their lucky breaks, believed to be evened out in the end. praytell, i hope those unlucky souls find a way to banish the overwhelming odds, and the relentless sense of helplessness: where the only way to taste its sweetness is in pockets of its adrenaline driven satisfaction, but all is known to be dark and miserable inside.

truth be told it was probably deserved what needs to be salvaged from created disarray, and it probably be a mountain to climb. at least the clearance to climb it has been done, but really the problem stemms deeper than what is seen. and even in nonchalant casual remarks that are as unexpected as yesterday or at the downturn of events deep down its known to start from deeper and furthur within, infesting the very fortunes from the very beginning.

and it is beginning to show.
it musnt be allowed to fester but knowing it is one way to conquer.
something must be done.
something must stop it,
before its too late.

and in order not to condemn the writing on the wall,
lets hope the confidence and stance will rule it all,
and fight whats hampered it to the bitter end.
for whatever the outcome good or bad,

this is the beginning of an end.