30/9/2008 -

words escape me as much as time confunded me in our last memorable moment of intimacy. thoughts cant pacify my insatiable desire to reverse the course of time, as fervent dreams parade through in fantastical sequences of fairy tale endings- it was either entirely fastiduous falsified thinking or a immoral consequence on her endeavour in a selfish demeanour. you know who you are; your signs of maturity in youth coursing through your veins as you ventured into unchartered waters; even beating age long cliches en route to a really touching display of emotion. i was too dumbstruck that day, oh alas i was far too much in lagging disarray, still clinging on to my immaturity, my slow transition to adulthood. on that day, that day the cake was given to be to eat it; the day the stage was set, the curtains rolled open and a fanfare being played; i should have took centrestage, and held your hand aloft to the heavens in nodes of bliss euphoric in pure joy. for a gem you really are, and i never met anyone so valuable and so priceless.

the day i seeked fresh pastures, i squandered a life of lush meadows of greenery.

oh ye fateful day, ill recollect till the skies turned grey.

its a special day for you today.

all i can say is;

if i can turn back time,

i would have taken your hand,

and walked along into the sunset.