And So I speak... On a more personal note... I am still in love... madly.  Living in a less than ideal physical space with my daughter and significant other and her boys and ex and his mother is becoming a strain.  when i speak of getting my own place.... She looks at me like i hate herbecause she can't leave til the youngest is a little more settled in a new special school with meds and such, He says everythings working well for everybody the way they are and I should just stay, My daughter wants a place to have her own room but she will be leaving home in about a two months and I can't afford a big place alone.  I have been waiting out staying here til she left but i am nearing my boiling point.  this isnt my home.  I am not a parent to these boys and they have way different rules for them than I do for my daughter.  They are seldom punished beyond the original bitch out and let to do pretty much aanything they want the next day or so.  I restrict. and I have a curfew and chores and things expected from my kids.  Now my daughter is slippin.  and complaining that they don't have to or they get to or whatever.  I even get the evil looks or questioning when i say something about her doing not only her chores but thiers as well. I want to be with Kelly.  I would have a hard time sleeping with out her.  It will be three to 6 months before she can move into a place with me. What  should I do.  I am in an emotional Quandry.

SEE?

Tommorrow.... jealousy and todays Lesbian.