Last day

today i couldnt help it my friend kyle told me to kiss his neck in the middle of class and i asked him if he was serious and he said yes so well u just did i kissed his neck and omfg i couldnt believe it,it felt so good i have been waiting to do that for a long time and he was all thats so a damn turn on im not going to denie it whenever someone does that or does anything that has to do with my neck it just goes one direction and thats not down...god i love kyle hes so great..i mean seriously but yeah andy kissed me today to...i got hugs from just about all the guys i feel so loved....well sorry to cut this short but i gotta go get ready for the dance that our school put on for graduating the 8th grade lol well ya lets see what happens with the guys and me because i am gunna make a move..seriously...lol well ttyl
   Smooches

 Gorgous

7:44 PM - 6/14/2005 - comments {0}

boring day in hell

6:35 PM - 5/17/2005 - comments {0}

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ok i just typed a hella long thing and didnt push save and i clicked to close something and it was ERASED bloody hell...damnit...well anyways i was sittin there on my bed last night in the dark *i am afraid of whats in the dark and the dark itself* waiting for my mom to get home which she didnt...and i was at home alone by myself until 6 in the morning....anyways i was laying there with the phone and my cell next to me waiting for someone like austin to call but they didnt....i should have called him but anyways...i started seeing things and hearing things when nothing was in the house...i am begining to believe that i have lost my mind...my friends think so too since to them i am a gothic skank *when im really not either of the two* well anyways i think i am going to make a written entry in my journal journal so i will talk to you alls later..
  ~Britty

7:40 PM - 5/16/2005 - comments {0}

Dear Reader

Dear reader...
  I am very honored that someone is reading my pitiful site...i would like to get to know you so then maybe i would have a friend at this site and give me someone to write to. Thank you for reading it :) 

   ~Britt

8:50 PM - 5/15/2005 - comments {1}

I know that posting here has no point really there is no one reading it...I cant seem to find a Blog as good as Xanga was...I leave my friends only by force i had no say in it but my parents disagree that I once again was the reason she had a blog...if I could go back and take back that I ever told her about it I bloody well would have...she changed her username just to read my site behind my back making me think it wasnt here at all but yet it was I am not that stupid...and he did it to good they make me so mad...I really would like to find a blog site that was as good as xanga but I have failed at it because yet no one has gave me any tips or anything...I have tried BlogSpot where my friend is but I cant seem to come up with a good enough name!!! They may think that they have won the game well by god they havent they have lost and guess what they are in for a rude awakening...AH HA HA HA anyways i am going to go continue my search talk to you later *says to self since no one reads this*

    ~Britty

5:38 PM - 5/15/2005 - comments {1}

Untitled Poem

  Falling so far from a world i cant understand,
not knowing if i am going up or down,
  Surrounded by nothing but darkness,
no lights no nothing just me,
  Lost in enough concintration that i cant stop thinking,
cant understand anything else,
  Feeling so numb i cant even move my arms or my legs,
just falling away,
  Hearing music that blairs so loud that my ears ring,
not able to hear anything,
  Im screaming inside but when i open my mouth nothing
comes out,
  Not breathing,it feels as if im holding my breath
it feels like my lungs have caved in,
  I dont seem to know or understand why i am falling
am i dead? Am i alive?
  I feel the pain as the ice cold blood run through
my veins,it feels so real
  As i blink i feel myself landing on a black satin
bed, stil unable to move
  I feel the blood run from my face and the hole in
my shoulder
  As i close my eyes i think,This is my Paradise
but am i alive?

5:53 PM - 5/3/2005 - comments {0}

Escape

I am happy to say i found a place to get away from those who have been buggin the hell outta me at Xanga.Com...i shall say no names..but most of the posts on here will be either poems or just random words put into sentences...that may make no sence to those who read it but it will make sence to me because i think about it.Well anyways i Live on the Coast..i go to Taft...i work with horses i have brown hair and green eyes and i live with my mom. Shes the manager of our local bowling alley our ONLY bowling alley...and i also bowl...we just got back from our State Tournament and me and my partner got 1st place YAY go us....well anyways i have a very weird/dark and morbid person so some of the things on here may seem very bad and may make you think that i am going to do something stupid but im not its just the way i think and sometimes things come out the wrong way so yea....well anyways i must go and check someother things out talk to anyone who is reading this later..Lotta love
   Gorgous Darkness

6:36 PM - 5/2/2005 - comments {0}