These days find me so depressed, I feel so lonely and depressed, I can't think straight I've just locked myself in my bedroom retreating from the world, grandma comes in asking whats wrong trying to console me I love her for that but it doesn't deem to help a whole lot. Sometimes life can be so cruel, like its mocking you, my "babies" can sense my emotional suffering and comfort me all I can do is cry into my sheets some way some how I hope I will emotionally heal but the time it takes I do not know all I can do is pray pray pray meanwhile grief consummes me:\'-(