Firstly, I am glad to be back, as Journal home have been experiencing extreme difficulties over the last few months, I did think of changing but I find this one the easiest to use, even though in saying that I dont use it fully, ( translation dont know how too)

Secondly, amazing feats performed by bloggers last weekend, namely Sue http://smallersue.blogspot.com and Helena http://leenienz.blogspot.com/ , awesome and a huge achievement for  you both in completeing the SHE tri. You deserve to feel so proud!!!

Now to get back on the wagon and maybe even attempt to achieve what these two role models have done.

And hello to all fellow bloggers especially Becks and M

Short and sweet.

Cheers

and I have a house full of guests for Christmas, sorry folks that I havent checked in, but have been away with the boys cricket, All's well and I just wanted to say

a huge Merry Christmas, and happy holidays to you all, thanks for your support and I look forward to renewing our relationship in the new year.

God Bless and keep safe.

Well jury service is over, thank the Lord, now can get back to normal. I have to say I don't regret doing it, but I'm glad it's gone.

So I had a half day at work today, then shopped and bought a nice new skirt to wear to my first Christmas party, i read Sue journal today, http://smallersue.blogspot.com/ 

she is so focused and so organised that she has a survival plan to get her thru the party season, well done Sue!!.

I came home to an empty house No 1 son is out after completing final exams, and final year at College, No2 son was at cricket training, hubby at work, and it was nice and peaceful, so I made some soup with crackers, then moved the lawns, washed my car, and tidied the garage, hows that for relaxation, but i feel good, Im off to bed now, havent weighed this week, havent gymmed, but have got in quite a few walks so thats all good.

Dear M, you made me laugh at your entry, you know in NZ thongs are jandals and G strings are often called thongs!!!

Later

Cheers

and some people have it so easy, Life is like that, being on jury service opens ones eyes to the great deal of sadness and hardship in this world, I am not allowed to ever discuss the case, but I can say its a very sad case, and I give thanks that I am blessed in that I live in a completely different environment, one which is safe and happy, ( even if  I struggle with weight issues - what is that compared to other struggles).is struggle even a word?

My boys have exams and cricket tournaments this week, so I hope they both do well .I am looking forward to the end of jury service to get on with things.

Cheers

TIAGF: Great journal reads from M and Becks and Just jo too!!!

I am on Jury service this week, exciting to say the least, and scary, and hard work. Just being chosen as one of 12 out of  about 100 people who were summoned is unreal, and then to be made forewomen, ( being called madam forewomen by the judge is empowering!!!,

Even though its stressful, I will survive and do my duty, and the upside???? controlled eating!!! no where near a pantry for that  extra snack, well you have to hope dont you?

Later.

TFTD:   " I am only one, But I am still one, I cannot do everything, but I can still do something. I will not refuse to do the something I can do"

Well friends, I have been sick, sick and so awfully tired, like the kind of tired when you cant raise your arms above your head, that kind of depressing, can't get out of bed, but I have to tired. Sickness started as hayfever i thought, then it turned into a really bad throat and I have swallowed every damn cold remedy and anti-histamine, and I am still sick, I think I need to get to the Dr, I havent been to Dr for ages, only for usual smear and breast check, no sicky stuff.

I managed to lose 1kg this week, but cant rely on that loss as factual. Funny thing is the last two weeks I have been consulting a naturopath, and I have been taking vitamins etc, and yet I feel like crap.  maybe Im detoxing? I hope I feel better soon.

Cheers to all in blogland,

PS Huge congrats to Beck and Mat on the birth of their beautiful son, pop over and have a read of this amazing women - she is awesome!!! http://beckschallenge.blogs.com

Gee, Im so frustrated, Ive written three entries and they have been gobbled up by the gobbler-upers in blogland and I am so annoyed as I have lost my train of thoughts and now have no time to rethink them, bad bad bad!!!

But I'm still here and while the spirit is willing the flesh is weak, and I have eaten far too much bread today, so will have to sort that out,

I need to have time to do a proper update and post, but not now.

Back soon

PS Thanks M for checking in.

I've been thinking all morning about Time. Time and age, I think back to when I was in my twenties, and I looked at people in their late 40's early 50's, and having the impression of old age. Now I am that age and I dont feel old, funny thing is that ay my age My Mum seemed quite ancient, Now I have two children 18 and 15, and I feel not so removed from them. I keep young in mind and active in activities which include them.

Another aspect to the time is - the right time!!. Why over the years have I  embarked on  this very journey and failed, was the time not right? And is it the right time now?? Only TIME will tell.

So it is a new month beginning,

Christmas walking challenge begins next week,

I am looking forward to it. I am aiming for 10000 steps per day,

Talk soon

how thin people eat, the self control they have, and how they have a natural way of just being around food without the need to shovel it down their throats, I HAVE! ( noticed that is)  I hadnt before, but now I have!!! Scene one... my sister and her husband came over for a visit on Sunday, they stopped for lunch on the way over, but in the afternoon having asked them to stay for tea, I opened a bottle of wine ( I passed, stayed on D Coke) and set about serving nibbly foods, rice crackers, some pate and some double brie, some Ritz, now to be fair husband and I hadnt eaten lunch so we were a little peckish, but sitting around the table, chatting and laughing, a huge dent was made in the food and I must say my sister and her husband virtually abstained from partaking in said nibbles!!!

Scene 2 - cooked chicken, made fresh green salads, fresh bread and oven wedges, sis and her husband who are very slim, served themselves normal portions and still had remains on  their plates.

Question? do some people have inbuilt " I am satisfied" controls, why do some people not have this talent???

Question? Why did I have to be the fat one out in the family.

On the other hand I am working towards not being her! And more and more I am realising, its not just about the food and exercise, but also more importantly portion sizes.

So this week my intentions are:

Watch portion sizes - maybe use a smaller plate.

Drink  more water

and aim for 50000 steps in 7 days,

Send me some luck!!!

TIAGF: Online supporters ( thanks M and kal20m for leaving comments) and the closeness of family