Lori is on her way!!

My girl is on her way here and I am so excited!!!!! This will be the first time she has been to the new house and I want her to be impressed. I know that sounds bad and I am not one for impressing people but she is differnet. I want to prove to her that I can do alright for myself. She has spent so much time in my life putting the pieces back together and trying to help me out of the ruts I get myself into. I want to show her that I can do it by myself.

She doesn't mind helping, I don't think, but I feel like she is making up for all the my family has done to me. I do the same for her. She has an emergency I am the first there to help, hold her hand, listen while she cries. After all these years, we are the other's support system. I love that.

A little on the background of us.....

She is one of my ex's mother. She started out hating ma and I hated her. But then when she saw how much I was doing for my family, and how I was always taking care of everyone, she started to feel bad.Well I ran away from home and she was the one to come and save me. From then on, I lived with her and we talked about everything. After me and her son broke up, I worried that sje would go away. Well that was 8 years ago and our relationship has only gotten stronger. we kind of  "mommy" each other when we need it, but we also go out together. We can talk about everything, from our kids to our sex lives to our mental problems. Even though she is older than me, she never makes me feel like I am a child that she has to take care of. She is very much like a mom to me but at the same time she lets me fall (even though she told me how not to) and then she is there when I do, without the "told ya so."

I like the fact we can be so honest with each other. I love the fact we are so close and that we understand each other even if we don't agree. I love the fact that we both can just be us and not have to worry the other is judging. She will mess up, I will mess up and we will both still love each other. She say I am her "best child" (which is the opposite of what my mom calls me "the bad one")

Anyways she is going ot be here in an hour and she is going to hang out for my b-day. I think we are going to go out tonight, and though she doesn't know it, we are going to my party tomorrow together. I know that is mean to drag her into my mess, but she will forgive me. I cannot do it alone.

THANK YOU LORI FOR BEING YOU AND LOVING ME REGARDLESS OF ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1:58 PM - 4/2/2005 - post comment