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Birthday parties

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So my sister and I had a birthday party (not by my choice at all). Now let me start off by saying this wasn't near as bad as I thought it was going to be. I thought of the family fights, the alcohol, the arguing and a lot of talking bad that usually happens at any given time the "family" gets together. Not a lot of that happened, only the talking bad really, but even that didn't happen until I was in my car and fixing to leave.

My dad did a cook-out thing and made some food. I sat at a table coloring Mandalas until people came over and talked to me, then I talked to them. As for everyone else, I was so wrapped up in the coloring that I am not sure what they did at all.

What I do know is my sis never said anything to me. She never approached me. She never apologized for the $1000 mistake she made on my credit. She never said haapy birthday or kiss my ass. She said absolutely nothing to me or my kids!!!!!

I continued to talk to everyone else and hung out coloring for about 2 hours. I like detail so I spent the majority of the time there making sure things on my pic was perfect. After a while, I got bored and thought it was time for us to go (also the tag on my car got stolen this weekend so I thought I should go before it got dark). I get the kids in the car and say by to everyone except her.

Well as I get in the car she starts talking shit about me and crying how I never said anything to her. I know I should have been the bigger person and said something to her, but I am tired of being the bigger one. I am tired of the one who has to make it better when I am so clearly the one who didn't mess up. I am tired of her over dramatic act and her poor-pity-me routine. I would just rather not this time, I am tired and don't feel like it. Selfish? Maybe. Mean? Probably so. Needed for my sanity? Definately!!!

She couldn't say any of those things to me the whole time I was there? She couldn't have came up to me and did something? Why do I always have to be the one to make it better?

I am not going ot this time!!! I am standing my ground against these people before they push me any lower and I let them take me to the brink of my insanity. I survive on my own and will continue to do so for as long as I can/want to. They are extra curricular people, not really needed for me to survive or make it through.