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Fuck offThis is what I managed to tell the Idiot this week. I am sick of having to be "the responsible one" all the time while he gets to be the one the kids want to be with. So instead I managed to tell him until he is ready to parent like I do then he can keep his fuckin ass on the other side of the country where he manages to escape to once every few months anyways. I mean really if you can't help then why come around. Why call to say I can't call you? Why send me a letter to say you can't pay your child suport? Why come by if it is going to be too late at night to see them anyways? GET A LIFE!!! 4:17 PM - 10/24/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Sundays
Yep this is exactly how I feel today. I do not know how my day "off" always ends up being another day with too much to do but it does. And I dunno if I like it anymore. I want one day with not a lot to do. But that isn't today. The kids are still with B&L so I guess I can get some homework done, but the problem is that I don't wanna do it right now. I want to be just absolutely lazy. I wanna lay down and watch a movie or something. I still have to wash dishes too since Mellie is coming for dinner. Ugggg! 2:05 PM - 10/23/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy So where do I begin?This has been one of the longest few days of my life. I am sure I am close to losing my mind. The car breaking down and the kids being absolutely crazy and the rest of the mess. I am just not sure what to do. And to beat it all I am in love with someone and can't do anything to see them or touch them or even speak to them. How is this possible? What do I do? I have had one of the worst toothaches for the last few days. I have tried everything to make it go away and nothing is working. I am so tired. I have been up since about 4 because of the toothache and I have got like three hours a day for the last few days. I am just cranky!!!!! 7:14 AM - 10/22/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy FloridaThe kids got back from Florida yesterday and I got an earful of information that I really didn't need. Isaiah has had the most fun time filling me in on the goings on in the sunshine state. Apparently Idiot is living with his girl who from this day forth will be called Dumbass. She was nice enough to the kids but she said she didn't understand why I didn't let the kids go to see him more often. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I mean she has to be joking right?! Then again maybe not, but I am sure she will find out soon enough. I am sure this is another one of those girls that he will spend all of his time, money and love on (forgetting about the kids completely) and then when he is wrung dry, she will leave and he will be fucked because I will through his sorry ass in jail for lack of child support. He is so far behind now that I do not know how he will ever catch up to the point things are suppose to be. Isaiah also said that Idiot and Dumbass took him to the spring near his house. He let that baby go in the water and by the time he got out his lips were blue and he couldn't warm up until they put him in a bath. No wonder my kids are sick right now. They were put in freezing water. And one last thing...apparently B&L didn't like her because instead of staying the weekend, they came home the next day!!! His own parents were too mad to spend time with him on his b-day. I feel real bad for him. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASSHOLE!!!! Thanks for the debt and the most beautiful baby girl in the world. I hope you are saved because you sure have a small chance of not going to hell. If you don't I will make sure I make the rest of your life so bad you will be praying for hell to get away from me. (For those of you reading that don't know, this isn't jealousy. This is anger at the fact that he left his kids "to make a better life for them" and they haven't got shit from him. I dislike him with every fiber of my being. I am the one who has to see the hurt in my kids eyes. I am the one who kisses the boo-boos and I am the one who rocks during the nightmares. I am the one who sells everything we own so the kids can have shoes, while he is out paying for prostitutes. I am the one who is always made to feel like I am not good enough because I cannot buy them everything they want, when he gets to be the one they want to be with because he is "fun" and I am tired of it. Let the truth come out so my babies know what they can believe in.) 8:37 PM - 10/10/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Have to add new entry real quick!!!Ok so I need to run out the door but just in case a certain someone tries to look at the last post I wanted to say...If you don't want to know the truth stay out of my head. I never invited you in but I never told you to stay out either. I let it be your choice but you have to know the cost. If you want to be in here than you have to not judge. If you want to know about the things I am thinking just ask but if you need to sneak to see than the problem is you not me. I am here to just be me without your accusing eyes. I am sorry if you don't like, I undertand why. But I didn't ask you to judge me or even understand. I asked you for once grow up and be a man. 10:06 AM - 10/4/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Wow not getting shit done....I am not getting anything done today. Between typing here and having to go to the other side of the state I am not getting the first bit of my school work done today. I read some of the work for psychology class at like 2 am but the algebra is a complete fucking mystery to me....HELP!!! I mean really, who uses this stuff to talk to people anyways? I think it is a little unimportant to know the xy intercepts to tell a person they are nuts. I just don't see the use in it. No one had to tell me about xy intercepts in my therapy sessions,and won't unless they are trying to make me crazy! I just don't get it!!! I don't want to do any more algebra for the rest of my life. I want to cost through with just Comp, Lit, and specialty classes. Those are the ones I get and keep good grades in.Anyways I am going to get to it before anymore time falls out from under me and I fall more behind than I already am! 9:25 AM - 9/26/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Men....ha!I don't think I have meet a "man" in so long though I have meet plenty of boys posing as men for the sake of arguement. The favorite statement made by D two days before he goes to jail. "It is my life. I am a man. I can do what I want." The famous Kay statement made while D is in jail. "I ain't getting you out....you are a "man," remember? You figure it out." LOL...and now no speaking between the two of us. I don't care how old a man is....if his mother has baby-ed him his whole life he is still just a boy looking for a serrogate mother and someone to have free sex with. SO not worth the drama or the time for anyone like me. I don't have time to train him, or remake what his mother fucked up. I am a little short on time or newspaper to house train the man....sorry! On the other hand, I am not against all men...just the ones I have to live with. I like any man that is under the age of eight (ok just my son and little brother) and I am ok with any man who doesn't want money, sex or a place to live for free. I am also ok with the men that pay their child support on time, and do visitation with their kids. (Actually that is the kind of man I am attracted too though I haven't seen one of them in a long time.) I am even ok with men that I have as friends for right now. I have always got along with men better as long as we were friends and not dating. I do believe men were just made to give women something to laugh at! 7:11 AM - 9/25/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy |
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