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8:42 AM - 10/27/2005 - comments {2} - post commentShare and enjoy Yuck...
12:50 PM - 10/26/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Halloween
11:16 AM - 10/26/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy BedtimesI am sick of bedtimes. I wish I could just let them stay up all night and then they would sleep when they want to and that the whole world could all be just one big game. But it isn't like that and I have to pay the price of sleepy-time. They have big ole hissy fits and they cry and I want to pull my hair out because I just want five minutes of free time. Does that make me a bad mom? If it does I don't care because I need the five minutes. I mean I NEED IT!!!! The all day busy busy busy is enough to make a girl crazy and that is awful. I like being crazy but I also like being able to think without the "mommy mommy mommy" that I get every second of everyday!!! I am just so tired I guess and that tends to make me a little cranky to say the least. Well I guess it is off to the work that needs to be done. OMG it is already after 8 and nothing is done!!! I gotta get busy. I got to get it done before three a.m. or I won't get my needed three hours of sleep. Would someone please give me a bedtime? 7:54 PM - 10/20/2005 - comments {2} - post commentShare and enjoy A day in the life....I try to find the humor in this life but little did I know the humor is outsmarting me and fast.
For example, this morning the brakes go out in my car. Well there was no warning whatsoever that this was going to happen. As I am coming down the hill I live on, All of a sudden there is this metal to metal sound and then some violent shaking and my van sure ain't stopping. The man in the car in front of me can tell what is going on by the look on his face but me....nope I am dumbfounded at the events that are happening. My baby girl says "Mom I think the van is broke and all I can think is "Ya think?" but instead I say "Yeah babe....I think so." LOL takes a three year old to point out the ever so obvious to me at times. Well my seven year old, having been the man of the house for a few years, says "Mom think we should call a guy to fix it?" Well I know I could do it but THANK GOODNESS for payday. Damn right we are gonna call a guy and then sweet talk until it fixed cheap!!!! Needless to say I love being a girl and I am so happy that I got the intelligence to know how to use that. Well it ends up can't get it fixed until tomorrow so I am grounded to my house for a day or two! LOL OUTSMARTED by life again!
4:23 PM - 10/20/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Sleeping and notI have watched everyone sleep while I wander the darkness all by myself. I know they are innocent with their dreams and wishes coming to life away from me. I know that that is the one place I cannot protect them. That is the one place I become what they see me as and there is no way I can change it for better or worse. I want to be a part of them in everyway but I find that there are times when the only thing I can do is to let go and let them do what they think is right. I do not know when I went from the protecter of the universe to the one who may or may not be there but it happened and I missed it. I love them but they are no longer mine in the way they once were. They were the ones who kept me sane but now they are driving me crazy. I cannot get inside them. I cannot talk to them. I cannot be with them every minute of everyday. I just want to go back to the people we once were and forget the past. I don't think it will ever happen that way for any of us. I think the only thing to do is to now become something new to them as they have to me.9:33 AM - 10/9/2005 - comments {1} - post commentShare and enjoy The seasonsMy little sister asked me the funniest question this morning. She wants to know my favorite season. I say spring. She says hers is fall. I asked her why because for me the fall is when everything is dying and it is so depressing to me. She says the fall colors are so amazing and that it just gives her this alive feeling. She is 13 and at times I believe she has a way better outlook on life than i ever had or ever will. I mean she sees the beauty in everything.I raised that baby and now she is all grown and I am so impressed. She never went through the mess in her life that I went through and I love that about her. She doesn't always see the negative in life like I have a tendancy to do. She can just take the fact she has a spelling test that week and that will be the worst thing to happen to her. How great is that?! I was worried about getting drunk and just a few years later I was trying to raise my own son. She doesn't even want anything to really do with guys (though she did say she had a crush on someone) so maybe she will be the one to not have a baby before she is 16. Good God I hope so. I would hate to see her in the same kind of life I have now (not that my life is bad, mind you, just a big ass struggle). She is so the opposite of me and I think I did that (or at least a good part of it) so maybe I am not screwing up my kids so bad after all. 10:25 AM - 10/8/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Isaiah is student of the month!!!My
kid is such a good kid. I am so proud of him for doing so well in
school. They gave him a t-shirt and they also made a little poster for
him. I am so glad that he does all these great things when it is not
ever anything I have made him do. He is just like that all by himself.
I wish there was a way to make him know the extent of which I love him
and how proud I am of him. I never feel like I tell him enough or that
I do enough to show both of my kids how important they are to me. I am
wanting to show them but it is always like I don't know how. He is such
a good kid but I feel like if I don't show him or tell him enough he
will grow up insecure. I just want to be a good parent for them, both
of them.Be a good enough parent to make up for the missing idiot who
always runs away. What do I do to make it better...to make me better
for them?
11:57 PM - 10/6/2005 - comments {1} - post commentShare and enjoy Yipee yeah...Today is going to be another one of those non-stop, fun filled days of runnin 'round like a headless chicken while trying to acheive the goals of all my family/friends/enemies while trying to keep my eye from twitching and my mind from exploding. (Mind you, I am not bitchin, just stating the facts.) This days journeys began with takin the man to work. Next, on to getting the boys homework done for school. Then I have to get him on the bus and take J to school. Then it is off to take Angel and Jaylen to the doctor's office. Then off to the guys work again for food. Then back to get A and J. Then the fun of the day begins...LAUNDRY! Then it is off to get the kids from school and drive the hour to Savanah to go to the doctor. I am telling you the day keeps going and going. I am sure the kids love all the running around that comes with them getting out of school early, but I drove for a total of 7 hours yeasterday and I am not looking forward to doing it again today. And there are still a lot of things left to fit in the in-between times of this day, for example, dropping the math class, talking to my mom, making sure I eat today, and oh yeah, I got to get the kids stuff together to take the kids to the fair this weekend. They wanted to go to Chuck E Cheese but I figured they would have more fun at the fair. It will be good for the kids to get out of the house and see something else in the world. It is so hard on them being stuck in the house all the time. They never get to go anywhere other than school...but really I don't either so it isn't all that different for any of us.6:50 AM - 9/27/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Way too earlyIt is like a little after two and I am wide awake. I am not sure what is going on with my internal clock but it has been thrown way off to say the least. I sleep during the day and am awake in the middle of the night watching cartoons alone. I went to check on the kids and they are sleeping soundly in their own beds. No one climbed into bed with me tonight. What a surprise. At least one or the other are usually sleeping with me when I wake up in the morning. I want to stop being so bored in the middle of the night all by myself. My dad asked me if I ever felt lonely in the middle of the night but all I could say was not any lonlier than I do at any other time during the day. I mean I am just alone now as I am when it is the middle of the day. The kids are gone during the day and they are asleep at night so when am I not alone? During the middle of the day, at least I can go hang with Angel and we can fuck off doing nothing. Well I am going ot go lay down and watch the tv for a little while. Get some shit off my mind and maybe start working on the algebra work piling up around me. It seems like I never get it all done again. But it is worth the effort in the end, right?2:49 AM - 9/26/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Wakey wakeyI feel like all I do is sleep. I laid down with the kids and I was soound asleep before they were. I wake up to my baby girl saying wakey wakey to me. Of course automatically my guilt kicks in that I can not keep my eyes open long enough to watch at least one cartoon with them on any given day. Nanny wants them to be quite because Mommy needs her sleep, her body is trying to recover, but it feels more like mommy's body is trying to fall apart rather than recover. It is tired all the time and wakes up just as tired and with a few more aches and pains than it went to sleep with. How in the world is that recovering? The lack of the pain meds cause it be that much worse when I wake up and the lack of time makes the sleep that much more important than what it would normally be. Everything fits in tune with each other to cause me the extra grief called a nap. I wish I could never sleep, eat or sit still. I think the first two I have almost got down but the last is a little harder to accomplish. Hmmmm..... any ideas?5:17 PM - 9/25/2005 - comments {1} - post commentShare and enjoy IsaiahWhen the boy got back from camping he was absolutely miserable to be here. He wanted to be back at grammy's house. Said he was home sick for her house. How funny is that? I don't know anyone who gets homesick for someone elses house but not there own. Only my child. And I can't find the fun in grammy's anyways. She is my mother and I bailed out of there as soon as I could. I wouldn't go back (and didn't) even when we are homeless. But the kids thinks it is most fun place in the world. He believes the world revolves around the kids running in and out of her house on any given day. My lil bro is just a few years older than him and they are best friends. He wants to stay with Buba all the time....I know it seems to suck being a kid. Just wait until he has to grow up and pay the bills. Let's see how much that sucks. Or when his kids are whining about the way they don't have the new x-box and they want more than anything to have it but you don't have the money....that really sucks. Having to come home so you can go to school is not all that bad compared to that.2:28 PM - 9/25/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy The kids and I
7:34 AM - 9/25/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy Kid UpdateLet's see what is going on with the monsters lately.....hmmm? SO much really and so little time!Isaiah went camping last night. I woke this moring to see it is going to storm all day. I am sure he is ok it is just me doing the "mommy thing," ya know how it is. He is still my baby boy even if he is almost eight. He has lost three teeth in the last few weeks. He is at that gawky stage between 7-13 when they are missing teeth and getting taller and lanky. He is looking a lot better than I did at that stage, though I may be a little biased due to the fact I went through labor and gave birth to him. Jamen, on the other hand, has resorted back to trying to be a baby. Nanny has got the other grandbaby in the house all the time and Jay is jealous. She has went back to crawling and not talking. She does well at achool but won't talk to any of the adults. She just won't talk to anyone, though I know she can. She is astill doing well in school and the teacher says it is just a phase, but the phase has been going on for months now....when is she going to outgrow it? 6:52 AM - 9/25/2005 - comments {0} - post commentShare and enjoy |
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