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8:38 AM - 10/27/2005 - comments {1} - post comment

Good Deal

I am so passing my classes. I did my average check on my classes this morning and I am making B averages in each of them!!

The bad news:

I bombed so bad on the midterms.

I really thought I had done a good job but I guess I didn't study enough. I kinda did the "Whatever. I'll Pass" thing...Boy was I wrong!

And while I am ranting on and on:

D came by and said "S'up" to me. FOr you who don't know K&D speak that means "What ya wanna do? Be friends? More than friend? What?"

Well not this girl. I say "Nothing with you!" and (pat on back) go far away from him.

He is going to jail this Friday and he wants some from me....oh well! He better go look elsewhere, not this girl, not this time.

11:00 AM - 10/26/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

Welcome

To the craziness of my life. Not today though. UH HUH no way. Today I managed to get all three kids asleep at the same time. Imagine that. Ya think my parenting skills are improving? Well I do. On top of that I have went from a C average to a B average in my classes so I must be doing something right, right?  Someone give me an answer please!!! Alrighty then...I am alone here. Well in that case I will pat myself on the back and say good job to myself.

4:12 PM - 10/24/2005 - comments {2} - post comment

Me today

   This is the day I am sure my ANGEL side will show. I have missed being around my best friend for the last few days and I do not know how I am going to be able to get back ot seeing her but DANMMIT it is my duty to try to the best of my ability!!! I have missed writing here but with mid-terms and all I have been so busy. I am really not into this school year at all and I am slacking hard!!!! I got to get on the ball and soon... I mean the semester is half over and I am passing but it is a lot of guessing which is not going to help me with my finals I am sure. I am actually going to get started now. Thanks for the pep talk to myself.  

5:24 PM - 10/20/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

Cool site I found!!!

Ok a little bit of a lie....i ran across it because it was pointed out to me in one of my groups but I thought it would be cool to share. It is a live cam of African animals. I mean it is an ongoing cam that is always showing animals at this pond in Africa. It is kinda cool and my kids love it!

Check it out some time!

http://www9.nationalgeographic.com/ngm/wildcamafrica/wildcam.html

5:07 PM - 10/20/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

So much to say

8:23 PM - 10/10/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

Sad....

1. my best friend's husband is coming on to me. that is a bad bad thing. i can't say anything because.... well i don't know i just can't.
2. my other friend (and my best friend's sister) just had a baby and her boyfriend is doing the same thing. then i found out from a third source that he has been trying to pick up on another girl too. his reason "i ain't gettin none at home and won't be for weeks....gotta get it somewhere." wtf
3. i got an e-mail from my mom. (and get this) my twin sister is pregnant again with her fourth by the fourth guy in six years. my mom tells me this through an e-mail six weeks after everyone else knows. and the real kicker in the whole thing is that they live less than a half hour away. they couldn't call or come by....something to tell me. no they do it through a damn e-mail. i mean i was carried for nine months in a tight little space. we were born seventeen minutes apart. i saved her ass more times than i can count and have had my ass kicked quite a few for her. before the state took us away i got more than my fair share of beatings so she wouldn't have to. and i get a fucking e-mail!
4. they took my babies to florida for the weekend and i am so sad without them here. the idiot turns twenty-five tomorrow so they took them to see him. why do they always have to go to him? he is the one that left, not us. i just don't get how we always have to pay for the choices he makes. why does it always end up being him that has to "get his life together?" why did he wait until after he had kids to decide to do that? why is it always him who has to get on his feet before he help them when they are going without so he can by prostitutes?

11:19 PM - 10/6/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

Ok what is going on....

9:56 PM - 9/26/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

What's up with the cheering?

8:51 AM - 9/26/2005 - comments {0} - post comment

Life or something like it....

       So this is it I guess.....the begining of the I-will-never-have-another-baby blues. And who owuld have thought I of all people whould have got it. I mean most of the time I don't like the kids unless they are sleping and even then the snoring gets to me (just kidding they know I love them). But really, I was so happy when my smallest learned the art of the potty. All I could think was "Yeah no more wiping behinds." And I really cherish the sleeping all night part, the first thing I missed when I became a parent. But as I look back on it now, I think of the middle of the nights just the two, sometmes three of us, up for a feeding as we looked at the stars and I made them listen to the dreams I had for them. Or the times when, being a single parent, they look up at you with their biggest no-teeth grin, that says "You made me and I made you the best." and you know it is true? Or how about the soft sweet smell, after a bath, as they lay snuggled up to your chest, both of your hearts beating in the same place? Actually, now that I think about it I may be romanticizing it a little. Yes there were those times but they came so quickly and had so many of the not so pleasant ones in between, that I wonder if it evens out. But isn't it thouse times that help you through the others? Isn't the good times that keep you sane when you are in the ER at two in the morning with a cough that won't stop with one and a fever that won't stop with the others? Isn't it those times that make you keep that miserable baby book up to date? I mean who has time to sit and remember every last detail in detail? Not I that is for sure!

       Anyways, back to the problem at hand. What started all of this silliness to begin with is that ignorant sister I have. She has three kids already at the age of 23 and with the last one she had such a hard time i thought she was going to die. Then for the last 2 years since that one she has complained about the extra 60 pounds she is lugging around. So yeah I can see adding another 60 to it. She will be like an elephant yet complain about it! Then her husband is a dead beat (and yes I know I don't have one so I have no right to complain....ect ect.)  so how does she know he will stick around?! Well I do have to give him and her credit....at least this time *fingers crossed* it is his. I give him credit for staying when the other three aren't his. Of course only one cae along after they were married but still it wasn't his, and if it was me I would have been gone! So maybe this is for the best, who knows.

         My "baby" (who tells me everyday she is a big girl) turned three a few weeks ago. Off into the world of big girls she will go, leaving me in the lost land of babyhood all alone. Then my son, the traitor, decided that he was going top up and turn seven this week. He tried to warn me that it was going to happen, that it was approaching fast, but no I just kept believing that he was going to stop at six. Then BAM! There he is two days from seven still sleeping in his silly Spiderman PJ's. I want to wake him to ask him "Don't you want ot stay six? I mean seven is practically grown and then no Spiderman..." but instead I let him lie in sleep, knowing the day soon approaches when he will trade Spiderman for girls and his bike for a car. No I will let him dream his happy little dream while he can.

         Anyways, it is off to nap time in my world. I need the sleep *thank goodness no babies* I guess this is the end of the baby blues, and good riddance.