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KEEPING MY SANITY

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I believe that many people have reasons why they write in diaries/journals/blogs.:P Hey, I can even list some of those here pretty easy: 1."I just love writing. It's my hobby." 2.I think too much. If I don't do something really constructive and productive about it, I am afraid that my poor head will soon explode!*big evil grin* 3."I write better than I talk, and I don't feel like wasting other people's precious time listening (and waiting impatiently) to my stutterings. That's awfully embarrassing!" 4."Not everybody in the world can always accept brutal honesty. That's what I am truly aware of." 5."I feel that the world is slowly lacking sympathy.:( Still, you know what to do when nobody bothers to at least spend a little time to listen to your problems." 6."I can be my own heroine in my own storybook!";D 7.... ...and the list could go on forever. However, I'd like to sum it all up with my own reason these days: "This is my way of keeping my sanity." ......................... *big evil grin* Yes, people. That's right. I am seriously addicted to writing. This has been my therapy. You may and may not like what I write in here. That is truly up to you. Besides, I am just here to present my point of view. So, welcome to my world. The Author

THE BROKEN ROMEOS AND ME :(

8/27/2007

*deep sigh* I've been feeling blue since morning.:( What really sucks big time is that I can't just shake it off. I've just made sure that it won't ruin my day so much. (Or, ironically --- has it already?)
It started from the morning I chatted with Tiger online. Despite the rather bad connection, I was still happy to hear from him again.:) I mean, I always am.*shrugs*
That, until he started mentioning about his ex being online.:| (FYI, he'd appeared offline just so she wouldn't disturb him with her load of b.s. anymore.*rolls eyes*) She displayed her picture with her latest boyfriend while she was online (guy no.13 or 31?*scoffs* Whatever.)
I saw what he saw (especially because she's still on my Messenger list too.:|) And I could already tell how he must've felt, even before he told me himself:
"I hate her displayed picture."
:'-(...
I know, sweetheart. I know. God, she's really heartless --- letting him see that!:x But still, Tiger did have a point about one thing: it's up to her. There's nothing else he can do about it anymore. I mean, they've broken up, remember?
"It's her life, as long as she's happy."
That's obviously an understatement.
"I just hope that someday, I'll find my peace in reality.:)"
"Yeah.:)" *sighs* I hope so too. For you, I'd chase away the blues if I could.:|
Then, Tiger started re-calling my old memories about some of the other guys I'd ever loved in the past.:| Nanda...Joza...T.B....
And Tiger --- I don't know why --- has been the longest I've ever loved...and still do.:P Wow, that's like...breaking the record, isn't that? Ha-ha!*big evil grin*
.........................
Okay, I was just humouring myself.:P I know and can truly understand what Tiger really meant.:| It's still normal for all of us to feel sad about someone we onced loved who's now away --- or even with another. It hasn't been easy. I know it never really is.
But still, it saddens me big time to know how he feels.:( I love Tiger, but I assure you --- it has nothing to do with me being jealous. I am not.
I just want Tiger to be completely happy again.:'-(
Then I received a mail from my old pal River from Syracuse, NY. I know we haven't really talked in ages, but I still try to catch up with his webcomic and its forum too. I know about his break-up last year with his fiancee of seven years already.*gulps*
Although they've agreed to stay friends, when she started dating another guy --- he's taking it really hard. He still loves her...:'-(
Why?:'-( These heartbroken Romeos...I don't know what to do with them. I'm just emotionally affected by their sad stories, but I'm only in love with one and it's still just the hardest to deal with sometimes.
*deep sigh*