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KEEPING MY SANITY

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I believe that many people have reasons why they write in diaries/journals/blogs.:P Hey, I can even list some of those here pretty easy: 1."I just love writing. It's my hobby." 2.I think too much. If I don't do something really constructive and productive about it, I am afraid that my poor head will soon explode!*big evil grin* 3."I write better than I talk, and I don't feel like wasting other people's precious time listening (and waiting impatiently) to my stutterings. That's awfully embarrassing!" 4."Not everybody in the world can always accept brutal honesty. That's what I am truly aware of." 5."I feel that the world is slowly lacking sympathy.:( Still, you know what to do when nobody bothers to at least spend a little time to listen to your problems." 6."I can be my own heroine in my own storybook!";D 7.... ...and the list could go on forever. However, I'd like to sum it all up with my own reason these days: "This is my way of keeping my sanity." ......................... *big evil grin* Yes, people. That's right. I am seriously addicted to writing. This has been my therapy. You may and may not like what I write in here. That is truly up to you. Besides, I am just here to present my point of view. So, welcome to my world. The Author

EMOTIONALLY...FLAT...:|

5/21/2008

I'm writing another entry again tonight, so that can only mean one thing:
I've missed James Blunt's concert tonight.:'-( The tickets are too expensive. I didn't win any contests for free. I can't afford it. (Besides, it's too late for anything like that, anyway.)
I'm also feeling too tired to do anything or even go anywhere else.:( We have another (heavy) assignment due tomorrow. No time for mundane stuff.
For tonight and maybe a week after, I don't want to hear any songs by James Blunt.:( Call me emotional or bitter or whatever, I don't care. I'm just a disappointed fan here.
Next time? I really hope so. Maybe I'll get to watch him perform live somewhere with Prince Charming next to me (whoever the hell he might possibly be - sometime in the not-too-distant future.:P) Holding hands, arm in arm, or maybe slow-dancing to "You're Beautiful". How bloody romantic that would be.
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Ha-ha.*big evil grin* Surprise, surprise. Even a tomboy like me can dream about such cliches too. But hey, I believe all decent, normal girls can dream anything like that. It's not against the law, right?
*giggles*
Alright, enough of that. Back to reality.
*deep sigh*
I'm tired of this groupwork.:( No, it's not that I think working alone is much better. It's just...*sighs*. I don't know. My partner is often moody, although she's actually very smart and perceptive. (In other words, she's the one with more concept creativity - while I mostly rely on my pronunciation and grammar skills.:P) Like right now, she just wanted to go home soon because she was too tired to think. (Well, everybody's tired.)
Now I'm confused. Now I'm clueless. This doesn't feel like a groupwork to me - at all. I'm all alone right now.
I know, I'm supposed to be more proactive with her. But honestly, I'm too tired for that too. I think I'll just keep quiet and stay numb until this whole craziness ends. As simple as that...