the last time i typed here was last thursday.... after we surfed the, we went to ultimart! we're all hungry so we ate... we ate at dunkin' donuts!!!not just that, we were standing there in the counter while eating 'coz there's no vacant tables!!! after we ate merienda, i saw kuya dict in front of greenwich. he said, he's with ate michelle who is at globe getting cellphone stuff thingy whatsoever that i didn't really understand,why do they have to buy another phone if their whole family already got their own camera phone!!! well, that's really the life of the rich peoples!!! they're mah cousins but im not rich so don't ever compare me to them or dare to tell me that im rich!! 'coz im not... definitely not rich like them!!!! well, obviously they took me home but i really don't want to went home at that moment 'coz im still enjoying loitering and having fun while we didn't have classes... but before we went home, we went first to Gem See's coz they need to order a cake for jessa's(mah cousin) bday!!!

when i got home, yvette txted me... she wants to visit and see some pipz at tiaong... and gawd! to my shockness, my past and ex-bestfriend was at the plaza,playing basketball!!! i really don't know what to do... i didn't like him anymore 'coz its been years that were not having communication and let by gones be by gones... we also have our separate lives but im not saying that we became together! were just friends and we also had an understanding i the past we never became together!!! i still like him but not llike what i felt in the past!!! now, i just want him to be my best friend again... but i think its impossible now.  we can't even say "hi!" when we see each other... i only have the confidence when i ask mah cousin mimi to tell something to him... i really shy of him... i dont know how to approach him.. i dont know how to talk to him!!! how i wish where still friends!!! i really want the friendship back 'coz i know that he's a very nice person, that he's so gentleman, that he's so kind, that he's so thoughtful, that he's trustworthy, that im not having a hard time on telling everything i fell to him!!!! how i miss this guy...

what a life?! im just thinking if ever i didn't transfer here at Laguna College,are we still friends? though there's something that change in our relationship with each other during the vacation? i really do miss him!!! one day, i'll have the courage to approach and speak to him!!! but i  hope he's not yet changing. i missed our elementary days... now, im just hoping that someday, somehow we'll talk with each other again and became friends again...

to mah friends who's reading this, i still like this guy but i just want him to be mah friend!!! the other guy in mah life, he's special and he's different... im joining every dance contest because of him!!! i want us to be close, to be with him, to be noticed once, to be noticed that im existing, to have some special moments with him, to know him bettah even though her gf is also with while having practice.... it's hard to see them together!!! but all i want is just some time with him... maybe, it will not help me to forget what i am feeling at this moment!!! but right now, it is the only thing that makes me happy!!! tenx!!!