this week has been a very nice week for me coz i've experienced lots of FIRST TIMES!!!

last tuesday we've started practicing our modern dance for the literary- musical fest that was held last thursday... i've already typed here the happenings during the first day of practice... but the second day was even more exciting than the first one.. on the second day of practice we praticed at clyvic's house(first time to mention his name here!!!) it was fun to be back at their house again and practice dance and saw his youngest brother, Josh, who was so cute actually cuter than his brother.. it was fun talking with the baby boy coz he's so "kulet" but so charming.. it was fun playing with him for the first time even though he talks not that often. well, to admit the truth, the baby and his brother looks the same but i think Josh is cuter coz he's still a baby and I like babies.. hehe!!! anyways.. before we start to practice we waited for Oliver coz he's the one who's going to arrange our position... when he already said our positions, we started practicing our dance from the entrance, with changing positions up to the end but before we start i was shocked that "he"( know who he is already.. hehe!!) pulled me and said "dito ka." that was the first he ever touched me!!! that was December 14.. after the practice we had our rest.. Anna, one of my co- dancers, and i went to a store near Clyvic's house to buy  food.. since it's Anna's birthday she treat us with 3 cracklings,2 Mr.chips and a 1.5 coke. when we arrived at the house, what shall we do??  of course we ate the foods... it was fun because me and Josh was both eating ang sharing Mr. Chips... then, when im looking for a glass to drink coke, there wasn't any so i said to mico: "Mico pagkatapos mo painom ako." but right after i said that, he (you know who) said, "eto oh." while giving the glass that he should be drinking at, at that time... hahaha!!! then after the eating time, rest first before we dance again... while resting, Josh was showing us some pictures and at that time he was starting to be talkative...after the rest was dancing time again and after it was lunch time..

at lunch, we ate at Jerrel's food house but we really should be at RCMN but there's a brown out and the super cone will not be cooked... after lunch, we went at lakeside not to practice but to watch the participants for the loyalty day practicing... we asked ryan if we can go home already because its already 5pm. he just said" kaya nyo na ba ang sarili nyo bukas?" we said yes because we really want to go home already so he let us go ..

the next day was the awaited literary musical fest... the funniest part was when our classmates told us to invite our co-dancers to practice at the room. the only reason they wanted us to practice there bacause the girls really like Clyvic especially Cham... later on, our co-dancers were at the room already and we started practicing... after we practice, they went to the lakeside to practice their loyalty dance.. then  later on, someone texted Jennie that we should go to the  lakeside... me and Jennie went there. mam D just wanted to see our dance... after we danced we went back to school.. then lunch, the singles of tsongz ate at mush-mush.. it was full of fun though Yvette cried because of what happened in the past.. well, that time i was really waiting for the time that i will be nervous because the contest will just be a few minutes to go but i didn't become nervous...

before the contest, there's another "body contact" as Ella called it.. we're at the front of room 335 and Ryan and Clyvic were acting in front of the 2nd year dancers that they still don't know the steps.. i know exactly what they're doing but suddenly he(you know who) went near me and said, "may sasabihin ako sayo" then he whispered at my ear, "loko- loko lang to. wag ka pahalata." then i said to him, "oo. alam ko no." then they continued what they're doing...

with the 2 body contacts and the time he gave me his glass and called me in my name, i never felt somehting... i was just shocked!!! i never expected those things to happen. i think i don't love him anymore. everything that happened just happened in a natural way... there wasn't any hesitations in me, i haven't felt my ears turn red, i wasn't feeling "kilig" that time, my heart didn't pound faster and loving him again hasn't entered my mind... i was so proud of myself... today, is their anniversary already... 1st year anniversary!!! i know he's happy and im also happy with what's happening in my life. even though there's no love life, no crushes, no inspirations, no bf, no suitor, im happy with my family and my friends...

i am so happy with my recovery with him. after almost a year, im done with him. im happy there's an improvement in our relationship as friends and as a co- dancer... im happy with that!!! im not having a hard time with him and his girlfriend anymore... im happy that he already know me.. im happy that the wounds heals already though there's still a scar... i still like him but not like the way i like him a few months ago... hoping we'll be friends.. and hoping we'll both be happy in our lives...

hahaha!!! my nose is bleeding with this entry... hahaha!! i think im going to talk now with three people!!! xerez, nikka and ella, thanks for understanding... masaya na talaga ako!!! im going to celebrate christmas very happy and very contented with my life... thanks talaga!!! mahal ko kayong tatlo!!!