So i walked up to one of my tables this evening, just about to start my same old ramble about what the hell the restaurant was about and what  the hell they wanted, one of the women turned to me with a look of total shock on her face!

      She was siting in front of a window and the sun was right on my face.

     Suddenly she exclaimed "you have the most beautiful eyes!!" by the look on her face i thought she had seen an GOD!

as she stared at me with the strangest look of wonder on her face she asked how many colors were in my eyes?

     She did get a perfect view with how the sun was setting!

 so i told her, the outer rim was a dark ocean blue, the middle is a emerald green with specks of grey and the 3rd ring in the center is a yellowish gold.

 Of coarse i have had many people tell me that i have amazing eyes, but not to that extreme!

     It was very flattering!!

           Most people dont see my eyes in that kind of natural light.

                              So that was cool! 

                     I think my eyes are my best feature! i loved the attention she rained upon me over it, and these are my natural eyes, i do not wear contacts!!

               Other than that work was totaly boring!! i didnt leave untill 11:00! i closed down the bar serving area. for the last 2-3 hours i was alone cause the other guy i was with got to go home.

         it was so cute this kid is like 19, ok only like a year younger than I, but hes so innocent and this is his first serving job! he kept asking which kinds of wine was red or white! i was just really cute! he also looks like 15!hes just a baby!

       Im listening to Sarah Brightman right now, for those who dont know who she is, you have been deprived! She is mainly known for her amazing soprano opera voice, she is a world famous singer! i love me some Sarah Brightman!, Josh Groban, Yanni!

     I BROKE OFF THE DATE WITH CRUSH!!!

            I feel so bad about it too! i talked to him about it and he was so cool and nice and totaly understanding! i felt like a serious jerk!! here is this nice cute sweet guy that for some unknown reason likes me! (i would say smokin crack but i dont really think so) and here i go just not even giving him a chance! although if we did go out im sure we would have a fab time! but i also sure one of us would end up getting hurt, OK not one of us, just me! cause thats the way it always seems to go right? why change now?

but really, i do need to keep my mind on the first priorities at the moment. i really need to get into school, get my license and a car, my G.E.D., save money for my next place, and work on restoring my sanity.

          im sure its for the best that i dont make any attempts with anyone at the moment. im just keeping my and his best in mind! Right?

      So why do i feel so bad about it? advice? anyone? who ever reads this please tell me what you would do! i dont even have to know who you are! but i would appreciate it!

         ~Blessed Be~                             MisCatt