I have a friend at work, we will call him MM. this dude ir ripped!! hes a fellow server, older guy, this is his 2nd job he wrks to pay for his daughters college. he also does massage. Really really sweet nice charming guy! right when i started working there thats what everyone told me about him. and i think the same!

         i love to scratch peoples backs. OK. it feels good on my finger tips. and everyone else enjoys it too. when ever i scratch MM's back he moans and groans and tells me how its too bad hes too old for me and i respond with how its too bad im too young for him! but i always just thought he was being cute! and after a min. of scratching his back he will always turn me around and give me a quick massage and end with a tight sweet embrace. hold me as close as possible. but hes like 45 and as you all know i'm 20! i never thought anything of anything about MM!

                 so anyway, we were talking and hewas asking me about what i liked to do with my time off. i said i liked indi films and he asked if i would like to hang out with him away from work and see a movie, of coarse i said i would love to and we decided to make some time next week.

             but then one of my friends at work confided in me that MM told them how much he liked me and how sweet and cool and pretty and interesting he thought i was! and that he thinks i might like him in that way! no, not really at all. i mean he sooo nice and i would like for him to be friends with, but not anything more!

        i swear i decide that i dont want a boyfriend and i want to concentrate on my life and getting all of my priorities together. and i have men coming out of the woodwork!

                   but the moment i want to find a boyfriend there are no available men in sight!!!

it usually starts when i begin to see a guy and i will be infatuated with them for about a week, i will be excited and happy and giddy, you know all that good stuff. but after a week i will get bored with them and just stop calling them and just blow them off. i wont answer their calls, i will avoid them and ignore them when i'm  around them. i still have guys calling and texting me from when i blew them off over 6 months ago!! Ms.J has a problem with men vanishing with out a word, i cant seem to get rid of them!!! i did'nt even kiss most of these men much less anything sexual!!! what is wrong with this situation????

             ~Blessed Be~                      MisCatt