I dont know whats wrong with me. I have been having these fucked up thoughts and day dreams if you will. I keep seeing different ways I could die in different daily situations and imaginary events. Im severly depressed and I dont know if I will ever find anything that will make me happy, or at least normal. I have a good job, a roomate I love, and a wonderful family. Blah Blah Blah......

(This is my blog to bitch, just a warning)

  Yeah wouldnt that be nice! I hate my gay woman hating boss, and my family is the perfect wasp picture!

I think Im defective. Everywhere I turn people are happy and having babies and are SOOOOOO in love with life!!! Im always gagging!! I think Im empty inside. I actually had a complete emotional breakdown the other night over nothing! I scared the shit out of my roommate shelby. Poor thing didnt know what to do! I'll be back.