here we  go again... So gage got married! Did he tell me? Fuck no!! Wait lets start this right.

Next month will be my 2 year anniversary of being back in dallas. Yes thats about as happy as im gonna get about it. Its really not that bad. I have a great apartment, 2 roommates i dearly love. A good job and friends. But somethings not right the mask is starting to slip. I find it getting harder to pretend to be the happy lady everyone has come to expect. I keep feeling like God is pushing me to leave. Like its time for me to find a new home. Not that i dont love living with my roomstes, because i really do. I just feel like Im meant to be somewhere else. North. I want to move north. If I stay in the country, oregon, washington, maybe even colorado. Im not real sure yet. This has been going on for months now. Its kinda driving me fucking crazy! I think part of it is the weather. Texas weather is bullshit. I dont know how much longer I can stand to live here. Any suggestions? I know Shelby will hate me forever when I leave but I also know I have to do whats best for myself. Ok done for now with the travel talk.