SO I HAD ALL OF MY CLOTHS CLEAN & PRESSED. AS I CLIMBED INTO THE CAR SO MY WONDERFUL MOTHER COULD DROP ME OFF AT MY FIRST DAY OF WORK, WE SUDDENLY REALIZED THAT I HAD ONLY 5 MIN. TO GET THERE. AS WE DANGEROUSLY SPED THROUGH NORTHERN DALLAS I SOON ARRIVED AT MY DESTINATION.I QUICKLY FOUND MY DUMBASS MANAGER,(WHO I REALLY BELIVE GETS DRESSED IN THE DARK BY HIS ELDERLY MOTHER!)LOOKED AT ME AND SAID "SORRY YOU'RE NOT IN THE CORRECT UNIFORM! YOU CAN LEAVE NOW, AND COME BACK WHEN YOU HAVE THE PROPER CLOTHS." WHAT THE FUCK? APPARENTLY, MY TIE WASNT THE RIGHT FABRIC, MY PANTS DIDNT HAVE BELT LOOPS, AND THE COLLAR ON MY SHIRT WASNT BUTTONED DOWN! THATS FUCKIN RETARDED!!!SO I SPENT THE NEXT 2 HOURS SHOPPING WITH MY MOTHER FOR A NEW UNIFORM. ACTUALLY 2 AND A HALF HOURS, FOR WHAT SHOULD HAVE TAKEN 30MIN.TO A HOUR. I KNOW, I KNOW"BITCH,BITCH,BITCH!SHUT UP MISCATT!"

         IAM WATCHING TV WHILE IAM WRITING IN MY JOURNAL, HAVE YOU ALL SEEN THAT WELLBUTRIN COMMERCIAL? IF YES, THAN YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT. HOW MANY TIMES DO THEY SAY" WITH NO SEXUAL SIDE EFFECTS!!" CALL ME CRAZY BUT IF I WAS TAKING AN ANTI-DEPPRESENT THAT DID CAUSE SEXUAL SIDE EFFECTS, I WOULD STILL BE PRETTY SAD ANY WAY. BECAUSE I WOULD BE HAVING ALL OF THESE WEIRD SEXUAL THINGS HAPPENING THAT REALLY SHOULDNT BE GOING ON! PLEASE DONT ASK ME WHY I JUST WENT ON FOR A FULL PARAGRAPH ABOUT SEXUAL ANTI-DEPRESSENTS! CAUSE I DONT HAVE ANY GOOD ANSWER FOR YOU!

    SO WHEN I GOT HOME I DECIDED TO GO FOR A WALK AROUND THE BLOCK BEFORE IT GOT TOO LATE, ALSO I FELT REALLY GOOD OUTSIDE. SO AS I WAS GETTING READY I SAW MY LITTLE SISTER AND ASKED HER IF SHE WANTED TO GO WITH ME, SHE IS 14 AND SHE IS LIKE THE ONLY PERSON I CAN TALK TO AND NOT HAVE HOMICIDLE THOUGHTS OVERFLOW MY MIND.ALSO SHE IS IN THAT STAGE OF " I HATE MY DAD, MY FRIENDS ARE ASSHOLES, NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME!! BUT I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE SHE IS COMING FROM AND SHE CAN TELL ME THINGS IN CONFIDENCE AND KNOW THAT THEY WONT BE REPEATED.SO AS WE WERE WALKING SHE ASKED ME IF WE COULD GO TO THE STORE, I THOUGHT NOTHING OF IT SO I SAID YES.( THIS GIRL IS LIKE SKINNY AS A TOOTH PICK!) SO WE GOT TO THE STORE AND SHE STARTED PICKING UP ALL THIS CANDY SHE WANTED TO BUY> BECAUSE OUR PARENTS WONT ALLOW CANDY IN THE HOUSE! AND HER BLOODSUGAR IS SO LOW SHE IS CRAVING SUGAR IN ANY HARD CORE FORM! POOR THING!

WELL NOW I MUST GO INTO MY LIVING ROOM AND MAKE A BELIVEABLE ATTEMPT TO BE HAPPY AND SOCIAL WITH MY PARENTS.

                           ~Blessed Be~        MisCatt