It's all set that she is leaving on Tuesday. She's all excited about it. I understand that, but I resent it. I will be alone again. I was so excited to have a friend. You know, someone to go and do things with. I get so lonely when hubby is gone. Even when he is home, he doesn't want to do anything. Just sit around and watch Star Trek which I think is the stupidest show in the world. I think that next Saturday, just for shits and giggles, I will go to the water park. $20 and I will just float around the wave pool and lazy river. Monday, when I get off work, I am going straight to the Y to join and start that day with the water areobics. I will follow my diet and take care of me. I am seriously depressed though. I don't feel well and I know that's why. I have just been so lonely. Finally, someone comes into my life and it gets better. I see the lonliness ahead of me and dread it. I come home to an empty house, I eat alone, sleep alone, I"m sick alone, I shop alone, bring in the groceries alone, pay bills alone. Everything. It's lonely. I really don't know what else to say. There is nothing else to add.
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