Well, I seem to be showing a cycle here. Up, then down, then up again! I'm truely not manic-depressive! But I guess if this is my therapy, then I'm only going to show my extremes here, right!  Well, here's hoping that my incredible start to my night doesn't come crashing to an incredible low again like it did a couple of weeks ago!

Where should I start?  Well, JC will be here in exactly 5 days. I have butterflys in my stomach every time I think about it!  Thank gawd I got my monthly henderence out of the way this weekend, I would hate to be bitchy and bloated the day he gets here. Not sure if I'll see him Sat. or not, I know he has family to visit and whatnot. I asked when the last time he was back on a visit was and he told me "last time I was in you" Purrr...and he wont leave without keeping that streak alive if I can help it!!! I can't wait to get his monster dick inside of me in any way possible!

Then I came to the conclusion my sexcrush may possibly be crushing on me too!!! YESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!! My office moved a few weeks back due to construction and he has always made a point of taking the corner staircase to leave, making some snotty comment on his way out. Usually the same one over and over, first it was about my hair, but he hasn't mentioned it since I asked him if he had a fettish. Then the night he worked nights (the night JC came out with his emotional outpouring all but ruining my fixation on one of the few nights I had Sgt here all night) he started giving me hell about not really doing my work while I'm on the computer. Well, after my move, he started taking the elevators, which are right near my desk, and tonight he made a huge point to stop and chat with me, asking if I got lonely out here and wondered if I had heard his ghost story! Which he proceeded to tell me about! Along with the other creapy crap that has happened to him up here in the department!!! Damn, I need him here to hold me and keep the creapies away!!! Of course I couldn't just let him hold me! I would certainly have to thank him for being my protector! I hear that highly emotional states leads to great sex! I would love to get all psyched out with him up here and take advantage of the situation to get him hard and fuck him all night!

He gets me so hot when I listen to him talk, and it's adorable when he listens to me! He has a mouth like a sailor (I think hes in the wrong branch) walking up to my desk with fuck this and fuck that, then when I respond using the word fuck, he gets this shocked look and asks if I'm an angry person, jokingly of course! I know I have a foul mouth! I can clear a room of sailors and truckers without trying.

Gawd, if only I could get in his pants! I'd kill for just a kiss from him!!!!

Scarlet