Tonight I am completely content with my world, with the exception that I have to go home to my sleeping husband. JC and I have had 24 unbelievable hours. Not bliss by any means, but we've come to some understandings about our "relationship" such as it is. He needs more space than I'm used to allowing people and I need him to restore my trust in him. He has proven himself beyond my expectations, which granted were pretty low. He has made an incredible effort to keep me in his life. Things are weird though. I know this man more intimately than his wife probably does. We've had the raunchiest kinkiest sex no one could ever imagine. We've had threesomes. We've fucked each other up down and sideways. I don't think I have ever had such fufilling sex in my life. We've been there for each other through both of our first divorces and not that Im planning a second, I feel like he is destin for one and I will stand by him through that one too. Anywho, things are very strange right now. We agreed to set some ground rules, be concious of each others boundries and start from scratch and see where things go. Starting from scratch is difficult when you know someone so intimately. I asked what he wanted to talk about and he asked about Icecream. Somehow in a matter of minutes we were talking about sex.

I don't want anything bad to happen to my husband. I love him dearly. I don't want to divorce him either. But, I can't help but feel like JC and I are appart because the time just isn't right yet. He has already said he will never marry again and I believe that. He has had some pretty nasty relationships. And as much as I love my husband, he is in no way the health nut I am. I am scared to think that I will be a widdow before my hair is entirely gray (I have no gray now, so Im not digging any graves at this point).

I believe I can truely say I love him. I know his body, mind and soul like no one else does and he knows mine.  

And fucking BONUS !!! MMM That sexy mofo at work that I've been drooling over since he got back from Iraq is working evenings tonight, we get off at the same time...I'd love it if we got off together too!!! WOOT And he invited me to go to dinner with them. I hope like hell everything I need to do is done before they go down so I can sit and eat with him too. Damn!!!!

In the words of the great  Ice Cube...Today was a good day!!!!

Blissfully,

Scarlet