Well, I've had three messenger conversations with JC's not so lovely wife and I can see where hes coming from now. Not that I blame her for her anger. Thats not what I mean. I see where she's manipulative, I see what he means when he says shes just pure evil bitch. I tried to be pleasent the first two times we spoke and she actually gave me credit for it, and to my suprise she told me JC is being deployed in June and while Im terrified for him, worried for him and afraid for the possibility he could die and I will never get to see him again, I am hopeful this will be an opportunity for him to get a break from her, get himself together and I can have some contact with him again. She even commented that I will be hearing from him soon because she won't be able to watch his every  move. The third conversation with her was not as polite as the first two. She must be trying to regain her ground. She made comments that she could taunt me with him and hold him over my head if she wanted because she had what I want. Sadly thats not the case. I know she knows its the other way around. I have him, mind, body, heart and soul. Her physical postion over him will be temporary. As soon as he can resolve the financial noose she has around his neck he will file for divorce from her. I believe him wholeheartedly when he says he'll never get married again and I dont expect him too, but I do want to see him happy, and he's not with her so she needs to be gone. I'm not leaving my husband and don't honestly ever see us getting married, so my belief in this is not dilluted in the fact that I want to see him be mine. I would be just as happy if we continued to be friends and he did settle down with someone who genuinely understood him as I do and was able to make him happy. Though this is unlikely since it's taken me 7 years just to crack the surface. Not many women are willing to wait that long; I wouldn't be either had we not had the internet to buffer things. Had it been a face to face relationship, Im sure (like everyone else) I would have probably had it with him years ago. But I know I'm tighter with him than anyone he chats with online because we do come from the same area and know the same people and practically grew up together.

She also made a coment that if I appologised for ruining her marriage AND for Karlie's outburst toward her that she would consider loosening her restrictions of him and possibly allow us to talk. PLEASE BITCH! First, I'm a proud American and American's dont negotiate with the enemy! LOL Second, and this was the one I chose to rub in her face, I would not submit to her stupid games and rules because he WAS being deployed and he WOULD get ahold of me regardless of her wishes!  That pissed her off and I haven't heard from her since. No biggie! Thats one manipulative woman! And stupid! I'm sorry, maybe it looks like I have substandard morals to some people that I am willing to divorce my husband, but theres a point where the price you are willing to pay for your self respect has to play a bigger role than your morals. She insists she will not divorce him regardless of the fact that she knows hes physically intimate with other women and this will not stop (save for her constant supervision over him and his every move), and he is emotionally involved with me. She insists she will see her marriage through good times and hard times and is not willing to give up just because things are tough. She says that in her marriage vows she said 'till death do us part' and she intends to see that true.  I wonder if she even has a clue!

Scarlet