I've never been the jealous type and I've always hated girls who go out of their way to make their men jealous. It's all really immature to me. I trust DH and think it's cute when some girl eyes him. Apparently I need to find a more middle ground. I told DH about my convo with my little sexcrush (not what I was fantasizing, but what I was saying!) and he must have taken it more to heart than I thought he would.  Last night he had a dream I was leaving him and he spent the day today telling me how hot my ass is and giving me some pretty hot and heavy kisses, not quite as hot and heavy as I want, but enough to get my panties a little damp, so he's improving! He's not a bad kisser, don't get me wrong, hes great, he's just not the kissin' type and I oh so much am! I guess if I want to keep him hot and bothered I'm going to have to give in and make sure he knows hes not the only one who would fuck me given the slightest chance!

So I was talking to him on the phone a bit ago and he asked why I never wake him up for sex when I get home.  HA! I laughed!  HA HA! I can't believe he even had the nerve!!!! I told him I try all the time and he sleeps right through it.  Talk about insulting, one night I thought I was going to be all sly and kinky and try to wake him up with a blow job.  Yeah, all I managed to do was get so pissed off I couldn't sleep. He got rock hard, moaned and growled, he obviously was enjoying himself! I looked at him and he had his eyes closed, which isn't normal, but happens occasionally.  Usually he likes to watch me, but if hes really relaxed he'll close his eyes and just enjoys it.  So I keep going until I feel he's about to cum and I bury my face in his groin and take his entire length in my mouth and down my throat. I almost choked with all the cum flowing down my throat. By the time I swollow it all down and come up for air, he's snoring! He actually slept through the entire thing!!!!!!! It was months before I tried to wake him up and I still refuse to try to give him a blow job to wake him up again! We'll see what happens tonight!  Of course if anything does, y'all will know, but considering the headache I'm working on, it's doubtful I do anything besides just crash when I get home.

Love,

Scarlet