Jessie baby,

I wish I could still be home and be there for you. I don't have a clue as to what you're going through and I though I may not agree with your decision, you'll never hear my opinions. I'll never lecture you or tell you that you were wrong in your decision. It was yours to make and I'm here for you no matter what. The best I can do is let you put your head on my lap and cry while I stroke your pretty black hair. I don't ever want to know the hurt you feel and the loss you've endoured. You're just not yourself with all of that thick black eye makeup running down your cheeks.

Tell me. Where the fucking hell is he? I'll kill that mother fucker if I ever see him again. You know I will too. I'll wrap his little dick around his neck and hang him with it. I want to go find him and teach him he doesn't fuck with my family.  It's probably a good thing I'm at work right now. That SKS is just to handy and that trigger is just too easy to pull. You know thats always been my fear with having guns in the house. Poor sweet DH has it all wrong. He thinks I don't like them in the house because I think there's going to be an "accident" and someone might get hurt. Not hardly, the sad truth is I don't know what remorse is and that scares me. It scares me to think I could probably pick up a gun and kill someone and never feel anything. Of course it would have to be someone I had no connection to, but all the same, my lack of empathy scares me sometimes. So there they sit, in their pretty little glass case, waiting for him to come back around to see you when he can't find anyone else to get his pathetic little dick wet for him.

I need to hit something. Maybe I'll head out early tonight, get out the bag, tape up and have at it.  I suppose it's a better outlet than using his face, although that would be much more rewarding and would probably save someone the hurt your endouring right now.

I'll be home soon and this weekend we'll get away. We can head out away from everyone and drink ourselves into an oblivion. Fuck him. Fuck everything. We'll make it better for you. I promise I'll never let him hurt you again, no matter what.

I love you

Scarlet