Damn, I feel good! I came home, filled up on pain killers and anti inflamitories, slept for 20 hours (not straight)  and took a long long shower. Have you ever shaved everything from the waist down? Normally I leave a little somethin for definition, but after this weekend I went for broke and took it all off! Oh My Gawd!! I can't believe the difference. I have on these sexy little lace panties on and they are just loose enough to really let the breeze through. Mmmmmm. It feels so good having them brushing lightly against me. Mmm Mmmmmm. I must be in a diferent state of mind right now. I'm not normally a romantic kinda girl, but I SO need someone to make some nice passionate love to right now. Slow, sweet, gentile, passionate sex. It's been way to long and I'm craving it.  I think I got in the mood last weekend when I was cooking. God knows, no one in my house appreciates my cooking unless I can make something resembeling Pizza Hut Pizza. I was dying for something good so I said, fuck the chilidogs, and started cruising around FoodNetwork's recipes and found one for "Shaker Herb-Marinated, Spinach-Stuffed Whole Beef Tenderloin" that sounded really good, I made some roasted bell pepers, new potatoes and asparigus with a little olive oil and bought the stuff for Tarmisu, but decided on a cheesecake for desert. Wouldn't you know it, the only one in the house that appreciated my effort was the 19 month old, who ate 2 helpings of everything. Almost spoils the mood. But every time I get into cooking like that I get in the mood for slow passionate sex after. I dont know what the connection is, but I've had the food and Im still waiting for the sex!  Maybe I should become a chef, I couldn't care less about eating my own food, I just love cooking gormet food. Real gormet food, not art on a plate. I like to know I ate something when I'm done. But then I may have to get myself a boyfriend to meet after work!  I've always wanted to own my own resturant, but I went to school medical school instead of food school. Oh well, maybe that way I'll never get tired of cooking. I just need to find an appreciative audience.

I think I'm going to go find myself some dinner!

Scarlet