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1/11/2009 - Just me

I am sitting here and thought I would write awhile. I am sitting here speaking with the Queen I really think she and I shall get along well. I feel a connection to her that I can trust her talk to her learn from her and for which I am grateful. I will be glad when we can meet in person. I would be watching football but my team didn't make it. Pouts lol. The other day Master told me he is like a lion and the family like the pride I read up on Lion's and their pride and really understand what he meant by that. The male lion protects his family but both lion and lioness defend the family. I am sitting here talking on yahoo to Jerrie and Kelley and writing in here, im so good at multitasking lol. I have been through so much in my life but I do not regret anything because I feel that mistakes can be learnt from to grow into a better person. I have been beat and abused but harber no hard feelings I firmly believe that things come back onto you so when you do wrong it will come back onto you. I am glad for the changes in my life and looking forward to my new journey in life. I usually feel scared about new things but on this journey in which I am taking with Master Kim and the family I do not feel nervous I feel happy, a sense of peacefulness. Mikie got hateful with me this evening and Jerrie was there for me talked to me and that helped so much. Not feeling alone having someone to talk to, having someone to care. I am so used to me caring for others not having anyone listen to me to truly care and just let talk, its nice now knowing I am not alone. I look forward to knowing Master and the family more and more and growing with them. I may not be a beauty queen or the best in the world but I have a big heart am caring and a good person in my soul. I am eager to please Master and shall be happy in serving him and pleasing him. I wish I could talk to him just hearing his voice makes me feel safe and happy. Blushes. My best friend Kelley is also a Princess and she has come to mean alot to me we get along very well. I am grateful for her friendship. Many people in life say they are your friend but how many of them know the true person inside or even truly care about the true person you are inside which is what matters. I care about others, i like being there for others I have always been the type to place others infront of myself and finally I feel like I have met someone that I can do so with and will respect and love me for it. With Kim I feel like he is caring as well not just wanting sex its like he wants to know me as a person and help me grow and I wih to serve him and make him happy to have me as his loyal Princess and experiencing life with him and the family. I feel at ease in giving him ownership of me mind body and soul and my soul tells me that this is what is right for me. I wish I had a picture of him so I could place it by my bed i think that would be nice. I am also pasting a copy of the submissive's prayer which I like and shall use to serve my Master. The submissive's Prayer Allow me the strength to answer questions I can't fathom.
Allow me the spirit to know His needs.
Allow me the serenity to serve Him in peace.
Allow me the love to show Him myself.
Allow me the tenderness to comfort Him.
Allow me the light to show us the way.
Allow me the wisdom to be an asset to Him.
Let me be able to show Him each day my love of my service to Him.
Let me open myself up to completely belong to Him.
Let me accept my punishment with the grace of a woman.
Let me learn to please Him, beyond myself.
Grant me the power to give myself to Him completely.
Give me the strength to please us both.
Permit me to love myself, in loving Him.
For it is my greatest wish, my highest power to make His life
complete, as He makes mine.