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The UnforgiveableI do not know what is wrong with me, yes, I know there are a lot of things wrong with me, but there is one particular thing of which I am speaking of right now, and that is the fact that for some reason I have such a strong, vile loathsome reaching to cheating. I know the majority of most people are disapproving of it, but for me, I really take it personally, I am deeply offended, and I myself have not in fact ever been cheated upon, so it makes no sense. I respond to it as if it was something that personally affected me, even if it involves complete strangers. Like if I find out someone was unfaithful, read something in someone's blog talking about some affair they had, or something of the sort, even if I do not know anything else about them, I will wish horrible things upon them because of that. I am absolutely convinced that it must have to do with some past life experience I have had, because my reaction to it, does not make sense to me. If a complete stranger betrays their spouse or significant other, who I also do not know, then it really should not ignite a feeling of murderous rage within me, and yet it does. I even hate it when it happens in books with fictional characters, whenever I sense one character is going to cheat upon another I get in instant feeling of dread and disgust.
10:46 PM - 10/6/2008 - comments {0} - post commentUnexpected SurprisesSaturday nights can prove to be quite amusing and interesting TV wise, as well often the weakens are completely dead for anything decent on TV, but while I am flipping through the channels desperately looking for something that will do well enough to just play in the background, I often stumble upon some little curiosity that I normally would never have found or watch, but for lack of anything else I figure why not. So tonight I cam across this movie of which I have never heard of before called Nemesis Games, and well so far it does seem to be rather interesting.9:46 PM - 10/4/2008 - comments {1} - post commentThe Morning AfterThe Morning After
First I open one eye
slowly, almost painfully
with just as much care
I open the other eye,
for a while I only stare
So this is what the next day
feels like, numb at first
but gradually feeling
begins to reawake
I am aware of things,
of skin and muscles
the moving of each limb,
yes, I am still alive
Memories return to the mind
movement becomes slow,
left in a space of waiting
for answerers to come
Was it all just a dream
or a nightmare,
I feel again like myself
but are things changed
perhaps forever
1:21 PM - 10/4/2008 - comments {0} - post commentAll in a rushAll in a rush it hits at once
All in a rush it hits at once
What do they mean
No breaking free
Falling away
Is it all just a game
Yet what do you know
But maybe this is the stage
Have you been made a fool
What now is the purpose of this
Give it up 10:07 PM - 10/3/2008 - comments {0} - post commentAutumn's CallingAutumn's Calling
I can feel the chill of the wind
the sound of the leaves rustling, like the steps of a ghost for here there is nothing, But a sense of loveliness in the crisp fresh breeze with air starting to chill, it is the scent of Autumn that lingers on. Beauty of decaying fire littered here and there the tingling of rain which rests heavy in the air. Dampness so near to the touch awakened in this rejuvenation that I might wander like a ghost and only the leaves will crinkle in my wake. I seem to slowly fade
in the bright burning beauty
surrounding all around me
whispering in the rain drops
and breath of the wind,
So who would see me, made into a simple shade
while I pass these cool stone roads so sweetly caressing falls new sensations teetering between life and death.
4:22 PM - 10/3/2008 - comments {0} - post commentQuote of the WeekI just loved this
Faith whic does not doubt is dead faith ~ Migeul de Uamuno 9:39 AM - 10/3/2008 - comments {0} - post commentStained GlassStained Glass Beneath this layer of dust there still lives a heart faintly beating, not wholly forgotten Still in the fading light a breath is caught when the eyes are awakened to what may again be wrought It begins only as a faint glimmer, something yet left to catch the descending rays Illuminating, slowly dancing across strands of spun spider webs, colors thought to have dulled are quickened with new found life Watch as it begins to unfold gently at first, but than subliminal, such vibrancy it may have only just been set So these old buildings sit forsaken, left to rot and mold while within they hide their secrets with no one to witness A window that is the soul awakens the gloom painted anew each morning by a stroke of the sun to glow with what only they know. 10:49 PM - 10/1/2008 - comments {0} - post commentStop letting the Chruch dictate lawsAfter I gave some sass to my gay friends out there, it is time for me to come back to the other side again. All it took was listening to some anti-gay ignoramuses on the radio to get me all fired up, and while I still believe individual churches still have the right to refuse gay marriage I do not think they have the right to determine the laws.
Here is what I think. Personally I do not think Gay Marriage should be put to vote. I think it should just be a given, than in the United States, Gay Marriage is legal, period. End of story, don't like it, too bad. Now why would I, who is often spouting for freedom and rights even for people who I do not agree with hold this view? Because last time I checked there is suppose to be this little thing called separation of church and state, and the primary reason why Gay marriage isn't legal in the majority country is because of religion. Period end of story. A discriminatory law is being allowed in the the USA because of the views of one particular religion. In the issue of Gay Marriage religion is being given power over the government and the citizens. 99% of all arguments against Gay Marriage are purely religious, and 99% of people who are against gay marriage are so on the grounds of their religious belief. So the government needs to just step in here and say screw you religion, this is not a Papal Country, we are not run by the church, and we are no longer going to allow a religious organization propagate laws that go against the constitution of freedom and equality for all. I think there needs to be more atheists in movement. Because from what I can see there is no plausible non-religious reason to be against gay marriage. Religion can still have their own personal individual rights, but I am tired or religions being the base of allowing bigotry laws within the country. I defy anyone to produce a convincing, intelligent argument against Gay Marriage, which has absolutely no grounds in religion whatsoever. I have yet to hear it made.
9:40 AM - 10/1/2008 - comments {0} - post commentLucifer's LamnetLucifer's Lament
Lucifer´s Lament Whispers in my ear the a bird of a little taste of shadow for the moons power would invoke Upon flaming wing he rose light was his name but stolen with a blow upon broken wings he falls All feathers stripped away I hear the distant music when I pray, all sad songs for the injustice How one could not forgive when a slave stands upon their own to break from tyrant masters and soar free Now the air grows cold passion burning in the eyes does he too not feel the true victimized Vilified by the weak who fear to rise from their knees he shelters those who break away to find their own voice.
9:08 PM - 9/30/2008 - comments {0} - post commentA word to my Gay friendsAnyone who reads my blog, probably knows by know that I totally support Gay Marriage, and Gay Rights.
Gay people, I love you, and I support you, but you have got to stop acting like A-holes, because believe me, that is not doing you any favors. You don't get to go around spouting about your own rights and freedoms, while trying to deny other people their own rights and freedom. Not everyone has to embrace your choices, and accept your lifestyle. Legally they cannot do anything to discriminate against you, but they are still entitled to their own personal beliefs and within their own churches they are allowed to have their beliefs and you do not have the right to infringe upon that. I was just listening to the radio about how churches that refuse to perform gay marriage ceremonies are being threatened under lawsuits, and how Gays are trying to sue to be allowed into religious sectors and organizations which do not support or agree with their life style. If you want to get married, than great, I wish you the best, I totally agree you should be allowed to do that, but if you go to a church and they tell you they don't want to marry you as a gay couple because it is against their beliefs, while I personally do not agree with Christian Conservatism, and Religious Bigotry, it is their right to hold those beliefs, and within their own church it is their right to act upon their beliefs. Just because you have the right to be married, does not mean you have the right to force a church to perform the service. Just as you are allowed to have the freedom to choose to get married, and to live the lifestyle you want. They also have a freedom to choose their own personal beliefs and to decide they do not agree with your lifestyle. Even if a particular church refuses to marry you, you have other options to get married, you are not being prevented from your right to marry by a churches refusal to perform the service. You can go to a judge, or find a more liberal church. But trying to say you have rights and freedoms, that you than want to deny other people from having, is not cool, and is not going to earn you any favors. There was another story about a wedding photographer who refused to photograph a gay wedding because it was against their beliefs, and so they are now being sued. Again, not cool. Guess what, they have the right to feel that way. Stop trying to force everyone to accept you. On your wedding day, why would you want that sort of negative karma and energy anyway? Of someone being there grudgingly and resentfully, and not really sharing in the celebration with you. Wouldn't you prefer to just find another photographer, their is no shortage of wedding photographers, I am sure you can find someone who would be more than happy to do it of their own free will. And all around, wouldn't that be better? To have someone there because they really want to be there? Just the way you have rights, other people have rights to, even if they disagree with you. So I love you guys, and agree you should have all the same legal rights and freedoms as anyone else, and that legally you should not be discriminated against. But sometimes you need to take a few deep breaths step down from your high horse and be a little bit more of a mature adult, and realize maybe other people have their own rights too, and you should not try to infringe on the rights of others, while you are fighting for your own rights.
9:58 AM - 9/29/2008 - comments {0} - post commentThe OnenessThe Oneness
Balanced upon the edge
the abyss spreads before me
a tempest in the eyes
I have reached the end
The end of the universe
where darkness speaks
and silence wavers
the stars dance in spirals
all emotions combust into one
single pulse.
Feeling the rush
every thought
every word
a well which ever descends
and somewhere below
is the place it was all born
Washed away
into outer space
the end of eternity
weightless, lifeless
never falling
Looking within
to the divine
senses awakened
tingling with life
Dissolved
it is the end
of all and yet
the beginning of all
Spanning, spinning
understanding without
understanding
The heart of the world
beating, throbbing
full of life where there is
no life.
6:49 PM - 9/27/2008 - comments {0} - post commentAwakeningAwakening Where have I gone to the place we all go the place where the Gods speak Beneath the deepest well atop the highest peak we follow the flow Where have I come from the place we all come the place the Gods weep Beware of places water should be and yet is not Beware of places water does not belong and yet is found A fish that breathes A fish that drowns Where will I be found in the place we all are found the place the Gods are silent What if the world was run upon a spring wound each morning by a flightless bird that only makes a whirr We can see better with our eyes closed so many shades of gray dancing colors passing light while we slip away I remember as a child that place I always tried to reach it came only as a glimmer and struggle I would to get closer always it disappeared right when I thought I would finally land But now I know it was only blood sells A wonder I could travel in their depths so freely like another world What do I seek something we all seek in the place the Gods grow 6:45 PM - 9/26/2008 - comments {0} - post commentQuote of the WeekThough I strongly disagree with Thomas Aqunias, I did like this quote
To one who has faith, no explination is necessary. To one without faith, no explanation is possible --Saint Thomas Aquinas 8:12 AM - 9/26/2008 - comments {0} - post commentSoulful EyesSoulful Eyes
I caught a glimpse
of sad, wise eyes
watching
and I wonder
what has been witnessed
in the passage of time
through half-closed windows
Can I deny
somewhere there in lies
a waiting soul
without words
spoken to me
in a moment
lingering longer
than the seconds
I took to notice
9:59 PM - 9/24/2008 - comments {0} - post commentThe Lady of the WoodThe Lady of the Wood
Her eyes did shine
like the river
and when she smiled
not even the sun could rival
Her hair seemed woven
from silk of the moon
and she dressed
all in ivy
To the song of the birds
she danced free as
a fish in the water
When then one day
it so happened
she heard a bard
at practice and play
The tune it moved
in her soul, so filled of sorrow
and woe, she began to weep
And into the wind
she would speak
her voice sweet melody
Minstrel of the wood
King of the lute
tell me my dear fellow
why play such a sad tune?
Struck by a voice
as sweet as honey
twas more praise
than any amount of money
so said he through his tears
"Oh Great Lady
Queen of this fine
green land, my heart
twas broken in two
by the maiden bound
I was to wed."
Your music
it has stirred me so
my dear Bard of grief
and mourning, tell me pretty
handsome lad, would nothingng
brighten your soul again?
"Oh sweet Muse
Lady of the Forest
if you might be so kind
to grace me with your beauty
than I may smile again."
A request from one
so despairing she surely
could not deny, and so
from the shadows she came
and before him did appear
So struck was he
by her perfect form
that he felt his heart
begin to mend
"You have given me
my greatest reward
more than gold and diamonds
you honor me as surely you must
be the Goddess of Love herself."
And from that moment on
ever did our young bard
play, only a happy song.
9:30 PM - 9/24/2008 - comments {0} - post commentLady GhostLady Ghost
Lady Ghost
lips cold
draw you
into bed
Warm fire
living flesh
burning flame.
9:58 PM - 9/23/2008 - comments {0} - post commentUninvited VisitorThis is my response to Vladimir Mayakovsky's "An Extraoridnary Adeventure which Befell Vladimir Mayakovsky in a Summer Cottage" and Frank O'Hara's "A True Account of Talking to the Sun at Fire Island" In both poems the poets account thier conversations with the sun. Uninvited Visitor
5:54 PM - 9/23/2008 - comments {0} - post commentWhat do I knowNow admittedly I know nothing about fashion, and I do not have any interest in doing so. I am not overly concerned with matching, and I just ware whatever I want to ware. But sense when have I ever let a think like that prevent me from mocking others for entertainment value? 5:26 PM - 9/23/2008 - comments {0} - post commentPoltical AgnosticPolitical Agnostic: Well this is a term that was inspired by John McCain. A politcal agnostic is a polition who will not commit to a single poltical view, but seems, at different times, to hold contradictory poltical views. Someone who seems to be both in favor, and against both sides of an issue, and than refuses to admit that either one of those view points was the wrong one, even as they change thier mind.6:27 PM - 9/22/2008 - comments {0} - post commentWhen A Dove DiesWhen A Dove Dies Beneath the sun the dove´s broken wing strangled by the light floundered for flight Round eyes rolling in a distant fright the circular pattern of the orb repeated in more ways then counted In each flailing rapid beat of a heart smaller than a fist A struggle in terror with each gasped wheezing breath A death without understanding but still a necessity that however questioned will not be lessoned The ring of life reflected in each round eye at the moment when they greet the sun The burning ocular that the cycle sweeps circles around It is the ring in which everything is connected. 4:47 PM - 9/22/2008 - comments {0} - post comment
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