Lost Discovery

I had a very intresting and quite revealing exerpince today and it really has given me a lot to think about, and to really look into myself and evulatute somethings. In many ways, it has not given me anything new persae or anything I have not already known in some fasion or another, but it has deepend my prespective and has made sense of a lot of things and given me some new things to consider and take to heart.

I was just going about my daily busines when this phrase quite out of nowhere came to enter into my mind. I had no idea what the phrase meant and it came in a way as if someone else was saying it to me, not as if I truly thought it up myself. It was nothing I had heard before or read anywhere and it stuck within my mind. So I went to tell a good friend of mine about it, whom I often dicuss my unusual experinces with becasue he is very knowledgeable and I like to get his insight, and what he said was surprising and rather intresting.

First of all the phrase in question were these words

"I am the oracle who speaks only lies"

So I was telling my friend about it, when he told me that there was this deity in anceint Babylon whom was known as being the oracle of lies. He is called Narmateru, and he is the deity of Lies and Deceit, he is also a part man, part crocodile, and part ram god.

My friend suggusted to me that it may be that he is one of my spirit guides. I was quite impressed that when I quoted the phrase to him he knew it at all, and I half exepcted him to just laugh and find it nonsense so I found this all very intresting. And then my friend told me that if Narmateru was my spirt guide then the crocodile or the ram could be a totem animal for me.

This really struck me, becasue I have always ever sense I was young felt a certain draw and connection to the crocodile and when I was kid swiming in the pool I would often pretend that I was a crocodile. I do have much in common with the croc and we share the same social structure. There is a lot about the animal that explains many of my own traits.

They are solitary animals who do not care much for socilizing with others, but they do mate for life, and they are very protective of thier mates and thier brood.

Of course we all know that I am an anti-socail personalaity, but this also explains why I never had much of an intrest in dating or entering in any sort of trivail relationships or highschool flings or anything of that nature, but simply wished to find that one person whom I would spend the rest of my life with and that would be that. As well as the fact that I have always had such a staunch, strong and unwavering beleif in monogamy.

Another intresting asepct of the croc of which I can identify with is that fact that despite thier nature, and the fact that they are preadatory animals with this thick hard outer skin and instcintive killer instinct, they have another side that most do not see or are made aware of. Crocs are in fact highly maternal, they have a very tender side, and really do make very exceelent and caring gentle mothers.

In many ways I can identify with this, though for me it is more symbolic, as I do not have any wish to acutally have childern, I do have this sort of maternaly side, it is just not the litteral between mother to child, but I have had in the past a habbit of being drawn to friends whom are, what you might call broken, people that have come from shaky backgrounds, bad family life, and have a lot they are dealing with, becasue of this instinct I have had to sort of be the one to reach out to them and help guide them.

And it explains why I have always had such an affinity for the water and why I am so comftrable in the water and why I love to swim so much.

9:27 PM - 5/30/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

My Life Path Number

The Life Path 7

Suggests that you entered this plane with a gift for investigation, analysis, and keen observation. You are a thinker of the first order. You evaluate situations very quickly, and with amazing accuracy. As a result, you are thorough and complete in your work, the perfectionist who expects everyone else to meet a high standard of performance, too.

A Life Path 7 person is a peaceful and affectionate soul. But you guard your connection to people carefully. It's easy for you to detect deception and recognize insincere people, and you avoid them. You aren't one to have a wide circle of friends, but once you accept someone as a friend, it's for life. It's as if you must get to know someone a lot better before you allow the wall surrounding you to be penetrated. Chances are you are a very charming and refined individual with great poise and a quick wit. Nonetheless, there is an exclusiveness about you. You probably aren't a very social person. Your reserve is often taken to be aloofness, but actually, it's not that at all. It is merely a cover up for your basic feeling of insecurity. There's no rush, It takes time for you to warm up to new friends. Clubs and organizations hold little interest for you; you are not a joiner.

You actually like being alone and away from the hustle and bustle of modern life. In many ways, you would have fit in better in much earlier times when the pace of life was less hectic. You need a good deal of quiet time to be with your own inner thoughts and dreams. You dislike crowds, noise, distractions, and confusion.

The overwhelming strength of the number 7 is reflected in the depth of thinking that is shown; you will garner knowledge from practically every source that you find. Intellectual, scientific, and studious, you don't accept a premise until you have dissected the subject and arrived at your own independent conclusion.

This is a very spiritual number and it often denotes a sort of spiritual wisdom that becomes apparent at a fairly early age. A built in inner guide providing a strong sense of intuition may set you up as being a law unto yourself. Whatever spiritual position you take, whether traditional or bizarre, you will cling to it with fervor. Once you have decided an issue, it is almost impossible to get you to revisit the question. Adaptability is not your style, and change for you is a rarity.

You rely heavily on your experiences and your intuition, rather than accepting advice from someone. Your hunches usually prove to be very accurate, and knowing this, you follow the directions they seem to guide.

In the most negative use of the 7 energies, you can become very pessimistic, lackadaisical, quarrelsome, and secretive. A Life Path 7 individual who is not living life fully and gaining through experiences, is a hard person to live with because of a serious lack of consideration for others. There is such a negative attitude. Indeed, operating on the negative side of the 7 can produce a very selfish and spoiled individual and living with one can be a challenge. This may be why some 7s actually prefer living alone. If you have any of the negative traits they are very difficult to get rid of because you tend to feel that the world really does owe you a living or that in some way you are not being fairly treated.

Fortunately, the negative 7 is not the typical 7, at least not without some mitigating positive traits. This number is one that seems to have some major shifts from highs to lows. Stability in feelings may be elusive for you.

4:49 PM - 5/21/2007 - comments {3} - post comment

The Cult

Cult is one of those words that has had attached to it a good deal of stigma and today seems to almost be synnomous in the minds of others with sacrifcies, orgies, devil worship and other such things. Though Cults have exisisted for just about as long as the history of man and infact near every religon, encluding the major relgions of today once began as a cult and some could argue still are cults to some degree or another. Christainty itself had been a cult.

So then the question is, just what is a cult?

Well litteraly the word means "care" the word cult first came to be In England 1617, and derived from the french word culte which means worship or a particular form of worship which in turn came from the Lantin word cultus which means: care, cultivation, worship," originally "tended, cultivated.

By extention the word cult came to refer to a relgion that has distinqushed itself from other relgions through change and individulism. This can be seen as either when a group breaks away from a main relgion to form its own beleif only taking some aspsects of the origional religon with it, or in a Polythestic beleif system a group the dedicates itself to one God in specific. It can also be a new group that forms with its own set of beleifs and ideas.

In retrospect a Cult is really nothing more then a minority group that has its own set of practices, beleifs, ceremonines, rituals, and festivals, but has not reached the majority to come to the status of being considered a Relgion.

One of the possible reasons for the villification of the Cult, is becasue often a cult would challange the ideas of the large more mainstream religion which would draw resentment, and so they would "demonize" if you will the cult to prevent thier own followers from leaving them to follow the Cult, and to protect thier own establishment, as if a cult should grow too big it could overthrow the exisisting religon.

This can be seen with Christianity, which did just that. It started out as a Cult with radical ideas which differed from those of the exisisting religon and gathered enough fellowship to challange what was that the time the mainstream religon.

And now today, every little fanatic, radical group, such as Heavensgate for example, is dubbed a "Cult" and though by definition one could argue that they are techniqually a cult, that is not in fact that the traditional and typical Cult is made up of.

But the media throws words like Cult around in association with these things and so people then get the idea that, a Cult really is some big omminous thing.

When in fact every exisiting religon today has hordes of cults of its own, and most are prefectly legteitamte made up of perfectly regular people, that have no inclination of comitting any crimes or any other such things. But any time you have a large group, as in orginized religon, regulardless of the nature of the relgion, thier will be smaller fractions of that relgion that break away, and might have thier own interipitations of certain ideas of the main religon, and they might have a small populace, and by definition these are in fact Cults.

4:32 PM - 5/10/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Cernunnos

I have discovered a new God, well in a fassion, he hs a god that has very ancient roots and one of which has always been in my awareness, but just recently I have been for reasons I cannot explain feeling a particulary strong draw towards him, and a sudden fascination with him, and his image prevades in my thoughts. It is almost as if he is calling to me, for reasons I cannot yet understand.

I am speaking of Cernunnos, or as he is often called The Horned One. There is not much known about him today, so unfortunately there is little I can say of him, as he comes from the ancient Druadic tradition, which was an oral culture, and so there really are no written accounts of Cernunnos, the way he had aquired the name The Horned One, is becasue he is depicted as a man with a stags antlers.

The one thing that is known of him, is that he was the God of fertility, the beasts, life, and the underworld or as the Celtis frequently knew it, the Otherworld. It is also said that he was born in the winter solistice, and marries the Goddess during Beltane, then dies in the sumer solistice, and he is portrayed in connection with the sun, for it is said that he alternates with the Goddess of the Moon in rulting over life and death and contintue the cycle of death and rebrith.

8:26 AM - 5/8/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Once an Etruscan

I think that I might have been an Etruscan in a former life, to sum up briefly just who the Etruscans were, they were an ancient civilization whom dwelled in Italy before the Roman Empire, and in fact it is said that the Etruscan's helped lay the foundations for Rome. They had thier own religon, thier own beleifs and culture.

The reason I came to beleive that I might have been one of the Etruscans is becasue a while back my sister had bought me this book on Itallian Witchcraft and I just started reading through it a bit. And there is this branch of Italain Witcraft known as the Tuscan Witchcraft, and in the Tuscan tradition there are reminents of the Etruscan religon which was passed down through the generations. As I was reading of some of the things in which they beleived and practiced, I could not help but to notice some similarities in the samethings in which I have come to practice and beleive, things which I have beleived before I even heard anything about the Etruscans, or about Italian Witchcraft, and things which I just sort of naturaly formulated on my own and are really quite unique and not nessciarly just principles common to Paganisim, as the Tuscan Witchcraft has a reptuation of being quite strange and unique even by the strandards of Italian Witchcraft and yet there were some strong parrelles to my own practice and beleif found within. So I think it must have somehow inherenently been passed down to me.

6:09 PM - 4/26/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

The Oujia Bored

I am sure the majority of us, if not all, are famillar with the Oujia board, and many of us probaly have owned one, or had one in our poscession at some point in time, and I played with our friends during sleep overs and other such things, and perhaps even has have notable experinces.

I just thought I would say a few words reguarding the Oujia, for there seems to be genreally two main schools of thought upon it, though there is also a middle ground. The first is the skeptics whom think of it as nothing more then a childs toy and give it no validity whatsoever. And the secound are those whom have this very ominous view of the Oujia and cast it in this dangerous light, and that using it is just a sure fire way to invite all sorts of trouble, and it is a thing best avioded.

Now there are some problems that can occur with the Oujia when using it, which should make one at least to some degree a skeptic, even those recpetive to the supernatural should take the Oujia with a grain of salt more or less, that is not to say that it cannot work or never has, and ther is the chance that one might acutally get through to something using it, and there are those that might have had genuine real experinces with it, but even so, even if you have made true contact, it is not the most reliable source, and truly should not be used as an acutal divination or meduim tool in any regaurd, but should be used completely out of entertainment and perhaps curriousty. One of the things one must really watch for and be ware of when using it, as far as juding wheather you are having a genuine experince or not, after you have established that no one else is acutally pushing it, it is not uncommon for ones subconsisoucs more or less to direct the device so that it seems as if it is moving upon its own, and no one is aware of physicaly or intionally pushing it, but it is truly your own mind, a sort of low grade telekinectis.

As far is it being this horrible dangerous thing goes, well I think a lot of that is senseationlized and I would say that overall there is realtively low odds of acutally causing in great disastor in using the Oujia and it is rather unlikely you are going to open up any portals to the bowls of hell or any other such thing, I would consider it to be a realitvely safe device for one to use. That is not to say that nothing can possibly happen with things like this there is always the chance. The Ouija is most possiblie dangerous while trying to use it in a place that already has a high energy, particuarly if that energy is of a neagative sort, becasue there cuase of the energy can possible use the Oujia as a device to give it more strenght and more effect upon the physcial world, but that is still a bit of a long shot I would say.

10:17 PM - 4/18/2007 - comments {1} - post comment

Ganesh

Ganesh is one of the most widely worshiped and beloved Gods of the Hindu tradition, he is perhaps also the most well known and recogonizable Hindu God by people whom are outside of the Hindu tradition and beleif system, and best known as and recogonized as the Elepahant headed God. He is seen as a brigner of good fortune and and the remover of obsticles which is one of the reasons he is so popular and worhiship of him so widespread, as many in the Hindu tradition keep a statue or altar for him in thier homes, and worhisp him as a personal God. I have always had a foundness of Ganesh and have always been intrigued by him, and so I have recently began my own devote worship to him in hopes that he might serve his name well and bring me closer to some of the things I hope for in which obstsicals have been standing in my way, and so I thought he was worthy of mention here. He is yet another God that can now be added to my varried pantheon.

7:07 PM - 4/17/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Creating a Grimoire

I have decided to begin working on a grimoire for myself, other then my online Book of Shadows which I have here, this will be my frist over truly orginized written record and account of magick and my practices. Though it is something I have been contemplating doing for a while. I have finally decided to go forth with it, in part becasue of the fact I have just come acorss a new technique I have been working with that I wanted a record of, and decided I did not want to just jot it down in my journal where it might get "lost" more or less, not that the journal itself would be lost, but it would be burried among the pages of varrious other random thoughts and experinces and such I have recorded there.

Just what is a grimoire some of you might ask, and what sets it apart from a Book of Shadows? Well a Book of Shadows is really something of a diary, it contains both personal thoughts, feelings, experinces in addition to recordings of spells and rituals. It is something of a mishmash of everything relating to ones beleifs and practices.

On the other hand a grimoire is more formolized and techinichal then a Book of Shadows, and does not contain personal informaiton, but is restritcied to only the recording the details of how to preform a spell, ritual, or other such rite. It is intended to be informative and instructional.

5:12 PM - 4/17/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Maat

One of the figures that I have not really mentioned or spoken much about that has been imporant to me is Maat. Maat is a rather intresting figure for a couple of reasons, for one thing though she was indeed one of the Egyption goddesses on the other hand, she was not seen as being an acutal being like Isis, Horus, Orisis, and so forth, but rather she was viewed more as being a concept, yet at the sametime, she did have a form, usually that of a winged woman of which she was portrayed. Maat is the personification of truth, justice, balance, order, right, hamorny, and of the the way all things should be. It was beleived by the Egyptians that without Maat Chaos would rule the world once more. Maat is something that everyone must carry within them as a part of themselves and unlike the other Gods, is not just something completely outside of us, but rather is a part of each of us. The Egyptians beleived that Maat was in everything, here is a passage reguarding Maat that I thinkg is a good representation of how Maat was viewed and just what she is.

Ma'at was reality, the solid grounding of reality that made the Sun rise, the stars shine, the river flood and mankind think. The universe itself, all the world around them, was sacred in the ancient view. "Ethics" is an issue of human will and human permission. It is a function of the human world of duality. What is "ethical" for one group is sin for another. But Ma'at, the reality that made all groups what they are is transcendent of ethics, just as a rock or a flower is amoral, a-ethical, without "truth or falsehood." How can a flower be "false" or "ethical." It just is. How can the universe be "ethical or moral, right or wrong"? It simply is. That is Ma'at.

I think that no matter what a person beleives they carry Maat with them though they might call it by a different name, I beleive that I am ruled by Maat in many ways, and in every desicion that I make.

10:36 AM - 4/13/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

The Art of Sacrifice

The practice of sacrifice particuarly animal sacrifice though also in certain cases human sacrifice has played a very promiment and important role in traditional pagansim, though these days it seems that the ritual and ceremonious art of sacrifice has developed quite a bad rap, the very word itself tends to conjure up mixed images and feelings, ranging from uncivilized, babaric, savage, santnistic, curel, and so forth, there is a varity of reasons for this, and it is largely to do with peoples miconceptions and misinformation about what sacrifice really is or they simply choose to ignore certain facts for the sake of proving thier point or becasue it does not fit into thier view of what sacrifice should be. Yes, I, one of the foremost leaders for animal rights, is going to defend the practice of animal sacrifice, but perhpas by the time you are finnished reading, it will not sound quite so crazy.

So for starters some of the key factors in why the very word sacrifice seems to cary such a stigma today, envolve of course, Christain villification of Pagan traditions and beleifs in thier quest to spread Christainty, as the assicociation sacrifice with the occasional cultic group of a bunch of young punks who call themselves Satanists or Devil Worshipers or some such, and to be "cute" thinking they are cool and just plain assholes they will slaughter some innocent animal in the name of "sacrifice" and though theoricaly this might be a sacrifice it is techniqually not what true sacrifice is all about and does not relate in anyway to the old traditional cremony of sacrifice, and there is the media, priarmarly hollywood that makes sacrifice scenes sensesananolized and as bloody and gory as possible.

And of course one of the biggist problems which is often a factor when dealing with history there is the fact that people try to anylize sacrifice and judge it based upon the mondern world and the way we veiw things now without trying to understand the way people thought back in the time of the event, and without viewing the rite of sacrifice from thier eye and view point and taking into consideration what was going on with the world in thier time. All too often people try to apply mondern ideals to historical events.

The rite of sacrifice was seen as very imporant, it was the way in which the people appealed to the gods, gave thanks to the gods, and appeased the gods, the animals which were choosen for the sacrifice were highly revered in many cases, and widely resepcted, the people were grateful to them, and saw it as a great honor that they were to die for the sake of the people and often the animals that were choosen for the sacrifice were pampared up untill the day of the sacrifice. To die in sacrifce for either animal or human was often viewed as the most elated death a living thing could know or have.

In many cases these sacrifces were acutally very humane as well, as the idea was not to cause the animals harm or to torument them, and they were often granted a swift and mercicful death in which they would be killed by one single blow, one common method for killing a sacrifical animal was to cut open the throat which causes instentanious death.

And one of the key and most imporant things to remeber is that after the sacrifice there would be held a great feast in which the people would eat the fleash of the animals that were killed, and often a great many people would get to eat, and mind you this was back in the days before the super market when a person could just pick up a slab of beef whenever they wanted, and the animals that were typicaly used in sacrifice were not the typical game of which the peasentry could commonly get, and so the feast proived an oppertunity to eat the kind of food which they would not normaly have the opperunity to enjoy.

With that being said I am not advocating the practice of sacrifice today, becasue things and view points are different now then they were then, but on the other hand, if a person or group of persons were to preform a humane sacrifice in which they used the animal for food afterwords, well that would be a lot more harmless and less destructive then millions of acres of rainforest being burned done to raise beef cattle for fast food joints, all without any spiritual meaning or ceremony, or apperication for the lost life.

10:55 PM - 4/11/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Vanishing Image

2:07 PM - 4/9/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

The Story of Rossetti's Mistress

Well this perhaps is one of histories mysteries type story, though one that probaly is not very well known and somewhat obsecure, but being both a romanic and a bit morbid when I first heard this story I fell in love with it and became fascinated so I decied to share it.

There was this poet in the Victorian age Dante Gabriel Rossetti and he was also a pre-rapphalite artist, and had a particular inrest in women with long golden hair, and he took a misstress whose name is unknown, and she was one of the models he used for his paintings, and though he loved her, he had always sort of taken her for granted, and did not spend much time with her, when she would come to fall ill and died, and after she died, he realized just how much he loved her and was overcome with grief and guilt and so he deiced he wanted her to be burried with this collection of sonnets he had written for her, which were called The House of Life, and this was the one and only copy of this manuscript so his friends at first tried to talk him out of it, and asked him to think about it and if was sure he wanted to do this, but he would not be convinced, and insisited, and so she was burried with the manuscript.

Well some 5 years later Dante had a change of mind and heart, and decided he wanted to manuscripts back and so he oredered to have the body dug up, and a firend of his, along with a Doctor, a Laywer, and a Police Officer were present when the body was exhumed, Dante himself was not there, his friend went in his stead so he would not have to see, but it is said, that when the coffin was opend up, Dante's mistress lay within, looking as perfect and pristine as the first day they burried her, with no sign of rot or decay, as if she had only been sleeping, and the only thing that had changed, was her hair had conitnued to grow so it filled the enitre coffin, but when they brought the manuscript out of the coffin, it had showed signs of age and rot, the pages had yellowed, and began to become tattered around the edges, and all 4 of the men that were present there. Dante's friend, and the doctor, policie officer, and laywer, signed a sworn affadivid testifying that this is what they had bore wittness to, swearing they that this is what the saw when the body was dug up

11:01 AM - 4/3/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Odin

I thought I would talk a little bit about Odin, now the first thing I want to clear up before I continue onward, is that this is my personal interpitation and view of Odin, for me Odin is how I choose to presonify the Sky God, so what I say will not nessciarly fall completely inline with Norse Mythology, though thier may be some smilarities as of course it is originally from Norse Mythology that I drew upon him, and forwhatever reasons Odin just spoke to me the most as the Sky God.

The way way I view the Sky God is as being more of an aloof god, unlike Gaia the Mother Godess, Odin is not as directly interactive in our lives nor is he as everprevelent in everything we see, hear and touch the way Gaia is, he is distant, he is high above within his throne and acts more as an overseer both for things mortal and human, and things divine. He does rule over the other Gods and deals most in Godly matters.

Becasue of this it is a bit difficult to really put in a word just what my relationship with Odin is. He has my resepct and love as do all the gods but I do not feel the same connection to him as I do with some of the other gods paritcuarly those I have previously featured here. But in matters that are greatly imporant to me, and matters in which I am most desperate and I will call upon him, usually in cohesiaon with Gaia, and I give my thansk and prayers to Odin when they are due. He is not forgotten from my thoughts. But I do not feel his pressence as strongly.

6:03 PM - 3/19/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Vortex

Well I have had two things happen to me last night that have never happend to me before, so I cannot help but to think the two events are related to each other. First of all I have been up all night, quite litteraly, for I have been the bit of the insomaic tonight, which is the first thing, and the secound thing was that there was a vortex in my room above my head when I was trying to go to bed. I will explain all of what happend.

I was sitting up at the computer bored out of my mind with nothing to do, no one was around to talk to, and there was nothing on tv, so I thought I would just go to bed, though I was not that tired, so I thought I would just lay in bed listning to some music for a while, which is a normal enough thing for me to do, to listen to my ipod, untill I start to feel myself start to fall asleep.

So I was laying there listning to my music, I do not know for how long when I began to feel drowsy, and thought oh good I will go to sleep now, and I opend my eyes to turn off my ipod and set it aside when I saw just above me this mass of intense energy, and it did not look like normal energy or any kind I have ever seen before. It kept moving in the cyclone motion above my head, constantly twsiting, like a tornado, and it would drift down close to me then move back up agian, while still always twisting around and I could feel heat eminating from it, and then at one point it came down near my face, and I was looking up so I saw right through to the center, and there was this sudden flash of litteraly blinding white light. All the sudden everything was just pure bright white and this sharp paint shot through my eyes, and then it was gone in a spilt secound and after that the energy just remained hovering around a bit before dissapating again.

And I tried to just get to sleep afterward but could not get over this intense feeling like I was not alone and then after several attempts of just listning to music, and trying sleeping again I gave up on the idea and just got out of bed.

6:07 AM - 3/16/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Witches: Fact and Fiction

The titile of an entry upon one of the blogs hear caught my eye, so I decided to read it, and then I could not beleive that I read, and did not know if I ought to be angery or just laugh my ass off, though I do have to admit it ranckled me abit, becasue it is the same kind of outdated thinking that I am constantly having to deal with. I thought about posting something on thier blog but figured it would do no good, if she was stupid enough to post that as vailid fact then it would not matter what anyone else had to say, as well I trust the fellow readers would not buy into it, but draw the same conclusions from it as I myself, unless they were as ignorant as she, and then once again it would not mattered what was said.

The post was titled Demons and Sexual relations, and of course was all about how witches ingage in intercourse with demons. Oh my god, you have got to be kidding me. I was just taken aback when I was sitting there reading that, who seriously thinks that way anymore? Is that not the most sterotyptical bull shit ever, that is straight out of the middle ages.

Now I do not in fact calassify myself as a witch, and Witchcraft, and Witches are there own thing, but we are all still Pagans, and Witchcraft does fall under the Pagan umbrella and I have known some witches, and been friend with witches before, and I there was a time when I use to consider myself a witch when I was just starting to come into Pagansim and begin my studies and practices in the beleief system, and the notion that Witches fratinze with demons is completely ridiculous. 

Even traditionally, back in the middleages true Witches did not consort with evil spirits and that is not what true Witchcraft is all about, despite what hollywood and Christains might like to try and make you beleive. Though like with any human being, of any backgrround, there would be and still are a few bad seeds, they do not represent what the craft is truely about and they are not accepted and do not practice true witchcraft but they prevert it and twist it around and trying to use them as an example for all would be like using zealots and fanatics as a bais of defining  an entire relgion of any order.

8:38 PM - 3/4/2007 - comments {1} - post comment

Easter Bunny Witch Hunt

I just heard this story upon the news that some city out here wants to abolish the Easter Bunny from thier city and not let the Easter Bunny come into the city for Easter and the reason is, because the Easter Bunny is not something that came from the chruch and is not really a part of the whole Reserection thing that the Christians celebrate during Easter, becasue they guy who is complaining about it is like a presbotererian or some other sect of Chrisatinaty that starts with a p I cannot remeber exzactly which one, but the thing that is so amusing about this, is that, if that is the case, then they really have no bussiness calling it Easter at all, and it does rather amuse me that they are stupid they still do call it Easter, completely clueless to just what that means.

The word Easter derives from Eostre the great mother Goddess of the Saxons with whom the original festival of Easter was held to honor, as well, according to this logic it should also mean that Christain Chrilidren should have no part in decorating and hunting after easter eggs begins just like the Easter Bunny Easter Eggs came from Ostara who was the Norse equvivalent to Eostre

So why pick and choose? If you want to get rid of the Easter Bunny, then to really be true to your beleif and not by a hypocrite, why don't you just give the entier holliday of Easter back to the Pagans, and stop celebrating it all togheter, because I can quite assure, everything you do for Easter, inculding its very namesake was Pagan first, before your hostile take over, so do not think you can now just pick and choose what elements you are going to throw out becasue it does not suit you.

11:17 PM - 3/1/2007 - comments {4} - post comment

The Phoenix

I have always been fascinated with the Phoinx, and the imagery and symbolism of the great bird, I am sure most of us are famillar with the myth and legend of the great bird of fire. He represents the cycle of death and rebirth. The great bird of flame that dies only to be born again from his ashes into fire once more entnerally. I remeber the day when Phoneix first came to me, it was an honor above all others. Something I could never have imagined or dared to think or dream would happen, but know he is with me always.

Fire had always been one of the weaker elements to me, I baffled me, and evaded me and was elusive to me. I kept my distance from it, perhaps I even knew fear of it, for I did not feel control over it, I did not feel I could comand it. Air was mine, the power of air surged through me, I walked at one with air. I knew air, it was my strongest. I was balanced perfelct with air, its freedom its power, and idendepence spoke to me. And of course I was at ease with water. I moved through water. I felt bliss from water. As a Pisces afterall it would be embrassing if I could not comand water, it was the element that I was born with, it moved through me. I always loved water, before I discovered air water was mine, and then there is earth, earth I was always comftrable with earth. Earth was steady for me, it was reliable, I felt at home in earth. Earth gave me peace. I could sit quietly with Earth and just feel it there, surge through me.

So I was determined I would overcome fire, I would tempt fire, I would make fire my own. I began my relationship with, to get to know fire intimately to become close to fire. My efforts would pay off, for I learned how to dance with fire, and there was much in common I had with fire, in fact my spirit was probaly more fire then the others. The day came when I could look at fire and say. Fire, I know you, I am you, you are me, we are one.

It was after fire became mine that the Phoenix revealed itself to me apprently pleased with my acomplishments with fire. He choose me to be his master, to comand, he bound his spirit to mine, and is ever with me, waiting, to do my bidding to fly at my comand. I can feel his presence, he has become my famillar, my guide, my elemental. He lives within my aura and I can wear his wings.

3:48 PM - 2/16/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

The Visitor

This is something that I have not spoken to anyone about before, in part becasue I was never quite sure what to tell them, or what it means if anything. I do not know for certain even now, if it is something sepreate from myself, an entity outside of myself, or if it is a part of myself, something created and brought to life by my own sub-concisious. I often question this and cannot find the answer to it.

Ever sense I was in highschool, somewhere abouts I do not remeber exzactly when it began I incurred a visistior as I call him for lack of a better word not knowing truly what he is. I have no name for him as he has not given me any. His visits are infrequent, that is to say those times when he acutally makes himself known to me, comes forth and contacts me in someway, engages with me. I have never acutally seen him, he has not taken any physcial form before me, but I have an image inplanted in my mind what he looks like, all but his face which remains unclear to me, though I can see it, it is not completely discribely it is through a haze. Sometimes I can feel him, his touch. And he speaks to me in my mind. He comes to me most often at times when I am the most alone and seculed, most particuarly when I am in the shower. And speficially the shower, when I am taking a bath he remains at bay, though there have been times when I have just been brushing my teeth or drying off that I feel him there close. Almost as if I could see him in the mirror but when I look up there is nothing. I have often wondered if he were not in some way connected to water beacuse of this.

But even when he does not directly come to me, his pressence seems to be one of constance. He is the one on those days when you kow you are not quite alone, when you feel you are being watched almost or that there is something or someone else there. The one who just waits silently in the shadows. I can sense him sometimes when I am home alone and move throughout the house. There have been times when I could feel him standing directly behind me.

Just what he wants, or why he is here I still do not yet know, there is a darkness to him, and I do not trust him, but nor do I feel a need to fear him, there is a hostility to him, but I do not find him to be directly dangerous to me. If he was to be given a name, one might call him a demon but not in the traditional hollywood or Christain sense of the word, as demons have lived long before Christainty and they are not always as simple and one-dimoensional was they are in Christianty, they are not even nessciarly all simple pure evil, vile beasts, they have complexties. Some even have thier own codes, and sense of honor, but that perhaps is a topic for another day.

There is a canralness to him something primitve and yet sophesictated and intelligent, some might think of him as Sin itself, but of course from my beleif syetem these "sins" are not truly evil bad things, they are just part of are animal nature, and a part that should not nessciarly be shunned and ignored.

I do not know why he came, or from what he came, nor why he is here, his motives still baffle me, and he does not make clear what he wants, it is as if this is all a game to him in some way, or perhaps a test of some sort.

The other thing that I noticed though he seems to be attached to me individually, that is to say he is not a ghost, a haunt, or a spirit of some sort, but something more, he does not seem to follow me out of the boundry to the house.

12:20 PM - 2/1/2007 - comments {0} - post comment

Ishtar

(I saw this image and thought it was a beautiful representation of the Goddess)

Ishtar is a Goddess I have always felt a special closeness to. I have admire her, and respct her, and I feel I have something of an intresting relationship with her, for I do feel very close to her, and I often consult with her and feel a comfort in her boosom as she is always there to listen to me, and help guide me. But there is also a darkness to her, and a mystery to her which appealess to the darkness within me, and in that way I think we also can relate to each other. Each night when I go to bed, I feel her pressence most strongly surrounding me and I cannot go to bed without thinking of her.

She is the Goddess of the moon and of love and war. So there is a motherly compassionate side to her, as well as a raw sensualality and sexulaity, and also a very strong power to her and I almost view Ishtar as my divine sister, and I mean that with the greatest of reverence, for I do not deam so say I am equal to the gods, but the Great Gaia is ever my mother, so Ishtar is like a sister for the kind of kinship we have with each other.

For I can confess things to her and I can seek help, and advice from her, and it is to her that I thank bringing me Matthew. For I after a previous relationship which I have discussed sometime back had come to its end, I consulted with Ishatar and sought her help in sending me some sign in helping me to find the one, in sending me my knight in shinning armor as it were, and she sent me a vision and I knew it was my soul mate and that is what drove me to the means that led me to Matthew and I do belive he is the one of Ishtars vision to me.

I walk with her in the shadow and in darkness and she is thre for me watching over me.

9:07 PM - 1/23/2007 - comments {2} - post comment

Shiva

A while back I did a write up all about Horus, my alter God, well another God whom I feel a personally close with is Shiva, and so I thought I would now take the time to write a little on him.

Shiva is part of what is called the Tirunti, which is the tree Great Gods of the Hindu beleif, and include Brahma the creator, Vishnu the preserver and Shive the destroyer.Though desipte his ominous sounding name, he is not viewed as an evil god, and he does have a two sided nature about him. As well as being a destroyer he is also a rejuvinator in some aspects. He is change both in the form of death and destruction, and on a positive note the shedding of old habbits, he also represents truth, goodness and beauty.

He is dipicted in many different ways, depending upon which aspcet of him is being represented, as the destoryer, he is often seen with snakes around him, and wearing a necklace of skulls, he is also commonly shown engaged in dance, this is the cosmic dance, it is said that the energy created by this dance is what sustains the universe, and another common image of Shiva is dipiciting him with a tridant white represents the Triunti.

11:41 PM - 11/28/2006 - comments {1} - post comment

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