letting go of someone we love is so hard to do ....

ive devoted four years of my life to you, and yet you can say those hurtful things to me? what have i done wrong? i gave you my love, my life to you. you say that i am the only one who wanted this relationship from the start, i thought we had passed that stage already. you are breaking my heart, you are destroying my soul. i dont know how you can do it. act as if i am nothing to you. that loving you was never enough, being what you want, almost slaving over my love for you. were you just passing time with me? was i good enough for you when you were at your low? but now that you have the chance to make good of your life, you are letting me go.

this is what you get when you love someone too much. you give them power to trample your heart, mess with your mind and destroy your soul. and these are happening to me right now. i wish i have the courage to go on with life. to face the pity in their eyes whenever i pass them by. to hold my head up high knowing they are talking behind my back of how you left me.

you say you want us to remain friends, but that cannot be. i am still in love with you. i still believe that we are meant to be together. i still hope that one day you will come back to me. maybe i am inviting more pain with what i am doing, but i cant help what im feeling right now.

maybe when the right time comes, i shall be over you. or maybe one day you’ll be back. or maybe I am truly destined to go on with life alone...

I Starr