i received a text message from a friend today. she forwarded a message from my ex, asking how they are and her kids. it hurts to much to know that he can email them or chat with them, but he doesnt even drop even a single hi in my messenger. its like he's in a time warp, a time when we havent met yet. i feel like he completely erased our time together, everything we shared and promised to each other. and he continues to be friends with our friends. i feel so much hurt, so much pity for myself, loving someone so much who doesnt care a single bit about me, spending my time waiting for the return of someone who doesnt even remember me. hoping that one day, he'll return and say "im here now, let's get married?", what happened to loving each other forever, to spending our life together?  did we have the different meaning for forever?  of growing old together? ...

what have i done to myself? what kind of person am i?  i gave him all my heart, my love, my time, my life ... and he doesnt even remember all the things he said when we were together?

I  Starr