im still trying to move on ... im doing well when im busy with work, i dont have time to dwell to much, but there are times i suddenly stare at space and get misty eyed ....  but at times ike this when im alone at night, i cant help but think of him, i dont know until when the crying would stop, i feel like i would like to go crawl in a dark place and stay there for a while. until all the pain disappear, until all my tears dried out ....

I Starr