reality just sunk in ... i should enjoy my life more, that what had happened in the past should not affect my life today. that i should be able to move on .... easier said than done ....
That sounds to me like the start of a break through and I'm very happy for you. I don't know you but it hurts to see someone in so much pain. Maybe you are nearly ready to end your period of mourning......on your own terms and your own time frame. Best wishes!