its actually been a month since i met paolo. and i am very thankful for him. he always make sure that i dont have time to dwell too much on my pain, my personal grief. he always changes the topic whenever he sees me misty eyed and make me smile whenever i feel lonely. and by tomorrow, a month of spending midnight conversations with him, of talking of endless nonesense things that we can both think of, whether its about work or about nothing in particular. i guess, somehow, i wish some of his outlook in life with rub off to me. and he's right, i should enjoy life.

so again, i want to say thank you for helping me realize that i need to move on with my life.... and though im still hurting, thank you so much for lessening the pain.